So after conversing with another member about my possible enneagram, and for once, actually reading through the various types rather than relying on a single test to give me my results, I've come to the conclusion that 4 with a 3 wing fits me more than a 7. There are things that I absolutely resonate with in a 7, but reading into what a 4w3 is, an ENFP 4w3 mind you, hit close to home, to the point where I began feeling emotional over it. It is said, that this typing (for ENFPs) can appear as a 7w6 typing because of the 4w3's more light-hearted and sociable nature compared to that of a 4w5 for ENFPs, but for reasons which I am uncomfortable sharing, particularly in a place so public as this, a 4 fits me better than a 7. Finding a tritype for myself, I have no doubt, 7 is part of that mix, but at my core, at my more basic emotional center, a 4 resides.
Only I hold the absolute key to all of this, and why my extroversion comes across as Fe, I admit, on the surface it does, but I assure you all, it does not come from a place of social harmony whatsoever. I couldn't care less for how a group's dynamic vibes. It comes from a rather dark, and extreme, self-critical place. Again, a part of me I never share with anyone, not even my own brother, whom I feel most close to. If only it were so easy for me to share what this key is, then I feel everything would all fall into place for everyone, but alas, I cannot. Not to sound cliche of a stereotypical 4, but I'm afraid I just won't find any acceptance here for who I am no matter how much I try.
I truly have no bias for or against any typing. The type I see myself is the truest I know of myself. I don't expect this will cause a dent or quell any suspicions, and I've come to terms with that. I also do not want this posting to end this thread, as I have found many of your comments intriguing.
And with that, I feel I must take a breather and reassess my priorities.
Thank you, everyone, truly, for your time.
-Dreamer