Why am I thinking of Lucy from Charlie Brown?
Here's another approach. What fictional character do you relate to LL? Then we will type that fictional character.
I don't know. Why *are* you thinking of Lucy from Charlie Brown?
Why am I thinking of Lucy from Charlie Brown?
Your rants make me think of her when she is pounding her fist in her hand.
wah wah wah waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
That's easy.
As a child (dare I say this?) Hermione Granger.
As an adult the teacher from Dead Poets Society, John Keating.
I'm not saying I AM them; just saying I RELATE.
I don't know why I didn't notice your signature before: Overpreparing is so characteristically SJ. ("Going with the flow" is, by definition, quite the opposite of overpreparation.) This sounds like someone who is very routine-oriented but a little sensitive about being overdependent upon it, so choice of this quote suggests a desire to be more flexible, or at least appear more flexible to others. It suggests insecurity in the way others perceive parts of your identity, (as does your entire type crisis.)
But it's largely unconscious, which is typical for inferior functions...and if I'm right about ESTJ, this lines up perfectly with inferior Fi.
You consistently describe Te/Si as the obvious frames of reference from which everything is built, but you think from reading ESTJ descriptions that they're too boring and mundane to describe you, so you make a lot of extra effort to explain how much you enjoy fun detours into Ne and Fi. The ways you describe Ne and Fi use are particularly consistent with tertiary and inferior functional processes.
I really think you just don't want to accept the ESTJ label because ESTJ descriptions are generally poorly written and don't go into much about positive use of the tertiary and inferior functions. The descriptions you've read probably are too boring to describe you properly, but that isn't because you're borderline between 14 different types; it's because ESTJs are a poorly understood and poorly documented type.
The descriptions focus almost exclusively on the overbearing Te and Si aspects of hyper-authoritarianism, but neglect to mention much about well-balanced and intelligent ESTJs who make use significant use of Ne and Fi as well. I'm guilty of this myself: I had instinctively typed an old girlfriend as ENTJ because I remember being so impressed by her wit and creativity, only to realize after she tested ESTJ that I'd just unconsciously equated "wit and creativity" with "N type."
I believe this is the root of your problem. You are ESTJ, but you mix in more of your tertiary and inferior functions (either that or are exaggerating how much you use them) than most traditional portrayals of ESTJs would indicate.
Because she's an ESTJ.
Wow. That's constructive. Thanks.
Asshole.
Hermione - ISTJThat's easy.
As a child (dare I say this?) Hermione Granger.
As an adult the teacher from Dead Poets Society, John Keating.
I'm not saying I AM them; just saying I RELATE.
Yes, it was constructive. You post like her. And no, I wasn't being an asshole.
ENF--muthafuckin-J!
She practically has it branded on her forehead, people.![]()
f stress continues, ENTPs become distracted and their "can do" attitude is threatened. Feelings of incompetence, ineptness, and inadequacy take over. They need to escape situations that are associated with anxiety is more prominent for the ENTP than for any other personality type. Doubtful of whether they will have what it takes to accomplish a task, they displace their fears onto situations they can elude. Panic, fear, and anxiety then block the expression of their creativity. Defensive phobic reactions cause the ENTP to circumvent achievement in other areas and prevent the success they strive on.
Like all NFs, ENFJs will disassociate themselves from stressful situations in an effort to protect their sense of well-being and togetherness. The ENFJ, however, will repress the unpleasant side of life only to have to face it later in an intensified form when it explodes from its hiding place. It can manifest itself as fits of anger, sudden outbursts, or emotional explosions. Often the ENFJ's body will reflect pent-up stress by manifesting various physical symptoms that will erupt unexpectedly.
ENF--muthafuckin-J!
She practically has it branded on her forehead, people.![]()
Correction: You didn't intend to be an asshole.
Anyway though your Lucy read is spot on. ESTJ to a tee.
ESTJs in their own words
Please please please read this. This site has firsthand descriptions compiled from real people describing their perspectives directly, not just how they appear to outsiders.