Azure Flame
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- Aug 26, 2010
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I was recently confronted with this video.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lclu-BQOybU
So as an ESTP I'm pretty much a bawss. So bawss, in fact, that I'm actually too bawss and completely oblivious to how bawss I actually am. I used to do pretty much everything the black dude in that video does, but this has caused a lot of problems in my life and I've been trying to figure out how to fix them.
I can't hold a steady job because of this. Its a problem. Bosses hate me.
For example, I walk into a group being genuine, interesting and attractive as fuck because that's who I am, and then as a result everyone is treating me like shit and my feelings get hurt and I walk away head hung low and go home and cry.
I have become a gymnast and a martial artist so that I will have a body sculpted to perfection and be the center of attention at parties when I'm doing keg stands and back flips. YAY EVERYONE LOVES ME.
As a result I'm often pushed out of groups for being a threat to them. For the most part I am consciously oblivious to power dynamics. Unconsciously, I simply follow my gut as far as shaping myself into someone who cannot be condescended or spoken down to. This often tends to make me stand out like crazy.
My question is, other than forming my own groups, how am I to assimilate into pre-existing groups? I tend to have 1 friend from every clique. Even on these typology websites I am trolled by alpha males/females who want to convince everyone to hate me so that I am outcast from the group and not respected.
Do I have any Fe types who can explain things to me?
Hwo to fe?n plz hlep
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lclu-BQOybU
So as an ESTP I'm pretty much a bawss. So bawss, in fact, that I'm actually too bawss and completely oblivious to how bawss I actually am. I used to do pretty much everything the black dude in that video does, but this has caused a lot of problems in my life and I've been trying to figure out how to fix them.
I can't hold a steady job because of this. Its a problem. Bosses hate me.
For example, I walk into a group being genuine, interesting and attractive as fuck because that's who I am, and then as a result everyone is treating me like shit and my feelings get hurt and I walk away head hung low and go home and cry.
I have become a gymnast and a martial artist so that I will have a body sculpted to perfection and be the center of attention at parties when I'm doing keg stands and back flips. YAY EVERYONE LOVES ME.
As a result I'm often pushed out of groups for being a threat to them. For the most part I am consciously oblivious to power dynamics. Unconsciously, I simply follow my gut as far as shaping myself into someone who cannot be condescended or spoken down to. This often tends to make me stand out like crazy.
My question is, other than forming my own groups, how am I to assimilate into pre-existing groups? I tend to have 1 friend from every clique. Even on these typology websites I am trolled by alpha males/females who want to convince everyone to hate me so that I am outcast from the group and not respected.
Do I have any Fe types who can explain things to me?
Hwo to fe?n plz hlep