Lady Lazarus
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- Jun 30, 2014
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- MBTI Type
- INFJ
- Enneagram
- 9w8
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/sp
It's been 200 years since I made 200 threads that taught me so many things. I'm curious.
Also, this title is no ksfkfjjlcjsofpefjc,mc0w-30ie but it will have to do.
Also-also this is the only good questionnaire that isn't the one that is exclusively enneagram.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is rawness and abandon.
Love is acceptance and forgiveness.
And Derrida? Is absolutely correct.
2. What are your most important values?
Individuality, empathy, authenticity, strength, intimacy.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I can’t quite make up my mind. But when I did have them with certainty, I had them because when the cosmology makes room for heaven then life is not a tragedy I was drafted into and instead becomes a prelude for something less wanting. Still, I am far too aware that it all makes little sense.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Typical. We just gain more refined ways to communicate/perform on our primal ways. And this is because we see their inherent as being very strong.
Power is being loved (here, is inserted my definition of love as stated above as well) for who I am. Then what do I possibly have to fear or feel anguish over from this world?
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
Anything. Mostly I am curious about other people however.
Literature, music, fashion, philosophy, and psychology are some of my interests.
Because they all satisfy some part of myself or another.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Not as a casual conversation topic. To a reasonable extent.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
To think of them would only double the pain, I prefer to space out.
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
Demian, Ten Nights of Dreams, Madness and Civilization, The Red Book, Gender Trouble, Blood Meridian, Autobiography of Red, The Waves, and Adonis, Attis, Osiris.
Arrival, La Jetee, Black Swan.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Frustration has made me cry. But I rarely ever cry.
I smile a lot, I’m not a very serious person although I think I kind of come off that way in text form sometimes. I’m kind of easily amused.
Why? Because I am far better at pretending I am human than Mark Zuckerberg.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
I never feel a sense of belonging but I always feel at one with my environment.
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Sensitivity, Insensitivity, moodiness, laziness, dramaticism, hostility, defiance, self-pity, reclusiveness, obsessiveness.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Passion, honesty, easy-going, creativity, humor.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Someone teach me how to cook.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
Well, I exist, so...yes. Some of the causes were too many deaths. My reaction was catatonia.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
From a very young age I have not been able to stand people who are not genuine.
So, I like people who are genuine.
Um...potentially all of them.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
I can’t feel attracted to someone sexually without being attracted to them romantically as well and I can’t feel romantically attracted to someone without it resulting in sexual attraction. I also don't think my sexuality is at all performative. Which makes perfect sense given what I know I do not want through its expression.
I need someone who will not try to protect me but will instead know that what I need is for them to support/encourage me. I also need someone who is as sensitive to intimacy as I am and therefore wants to have something greater and more perduring together than what we have as individuals. And lastly, I need someone who is more adventurous than I am because I’m not a troublemaker, I’m an opportunist.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
I would want them to understand it’s always best to be themselves and I would want them to become an accepting person.
I wouldn’t judge them on things I perceived as being more definite manifestations of their personality and I would attempt to get them to ask themselves why people or things are the way they are instead of doing something like categorizing them into bad and good.
Because possessing both of these attributes will give them a better shot at being happy than not possessing them would.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Inwardly I would feel curious and outwardly I would either ask them questions about it or present my side. I may be forceful depending on periphery factors I perceive though.
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
Hmm. I don’t think about society too much outside of maybe microcosm ways that aren’t on purpose. So I almost feel like I don’t have one. I don’t even use slang like most others my age do, it feels very “not me†and I always feel out of the loop. There’s also nothing I hate more than the fact that being hired anywhere requires you to use your connections, I want to be evaluated solely for my own merits...
I see people as often disappointing.
Donald Trump.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
I just feel drawn to certain people and even when they’re bad for me, I can’t stay away from them. I like a person for the unique occurrence they are and much like my romantic attractions, it’s very individualized.
I tend to feel afraid of seeming as invested in others as I am because I spent a good portion of adolescence feeling unwanted so, I can seem distant and like I don’t like the people I most like sometimes due to my uncertainty.
I tend to tease my friends a lot but in my old age, I also have grown to feel compelled to exhibit slightly nurturing tendencies toward my friends. Or at least I try to help them with my understandings of them and what they may need. Although I’m not really a good person to be friends with because I can be a total jerk sometimes as well.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
I’m a little more quiet and aloof around strangers unless we have an objective.
Also, this title is no ksfkfjjlcjsofpefjc,mc0w-30ie but it will have to do.
Also-also this is the only good questionnaire that isn't the one that is exclusively enneagram.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is rawness and abandon.
Love is acceptance and forgiveness.
And Derrida? Is absolutely correct.
2. What are your most important values?
Individuality, empathy, authenticity, strength, intimacy.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I can’t quite make up my mind. But when I did have them with certainty, I had them because when the cosmology makes room for heaven then life is not a tragedy I was drafted into and instead becomes a prelude for something less wanting. Still, I am far too aware that it all makes little sense.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Typical. We just gain more refined ways to communicate/perform on our primal ways. And this is because we see their inherent as being very strong.
Power is being loved (here, is inserted my definition of love as stated above as well) for who I am. Then what do I possibly have to fear or feel anguish over from this world?
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
Anything. Mostly I am curious about other people however.
Literature, music, fashion, philosophy, and psychology are some of my interests.
Because they all satisfy some part of myself or another.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Not as a casual conversation topic. To a reasonable extent.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
To think of them would only double the pain, I prefer to space out.
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
Demian, Ten Nights of Dreams, Madness and Civilization, The Red Book, Gender Trouble, Blood Meridian, Autobiography of Red, The Waves, and Adonis, Attis, Osiris.
Arrival, La Jetee, Black Swan.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Frustration has made me cry. But I rarely ever cry.
I smile a lot, I’m not a very serious person although I think I kind of come off that way in text form sometimes. I’m kind of easily amused.
Why? Because I am far better at pretending I am human than Mark Zuckerberg.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
I never feel a sense of belonging but I always feel at one with my environment.
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Sensitivity, Insensitivity, moodiness, laziness, dramaticism, hostility, defiance, self-pity, reclusiveness, obsessiveness.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Passion, honesty, easy-going, creativity, humor.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Someone teach me how to cook.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
Well, I exist, so...yes. Some of the causes were too many deaths. My reaction was catatonia.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
From a very young age I have not been able to stand people who are not genuine.
So, I like people who are genuine.
Um...potentially all of them.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
I can’t feel attracted to someone sexually without being attracted to them romantically as well and I can’t feel romantically attracted to someone without it resulting in sexual attraction. I also don't think my sexuality is at all performative. Which makes perfect sense given what I know I do not want through its expression.
I need someone who will not try to protect me but will instead know that what I need is for them to support/encourage me. I also need someone who is as sensitive to intimacy as I am and therefore wants to have something greater and more perduring together than what we have as individuals. And lastly, I need someone who is more adventurous than I am because I’m not a troublemaker, I’m an opportunist.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
I would want them to understand it’s always best to be themselves and I would want them to become an accepting person.
I wouldn’t judge them on things I perceived as being more definite manifestations of their personality and I would attempt to get them to ask themselves why people or things are the way they are instead of doing something like categorizing them into bad and good.
Because possessing both of these attributes will give them a better shot at being happy than not possessing them would.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Inwardly I would feel curious and outwardly I would either ask them questions about it or present my side. I may be forceful depending on periphery factors I perceive though.
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
Hmm. I don’t think about society too much outside of maybe microcosm ways that aren’t on purpose. So I almost feel like I don’t have one. I don’t even use slang like most others my age do, it feels very “not me†and I always feel out of the loop. There’s also nothing I hate more than the fact that being hired anywhere requires you to use your connections, I want to be evaluated solely for my own merits...
I see people as often disappointing.
Donald Trump.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
I just feel drawn to certain people and even when they’re bad for me, I can’t stay away from them. I like a person for the unique occurrence they are and much like my romantic attractions, it’s very individualized.
I tend to feel afraid of seeming as invested in others as I am because I spent a good portion of adolescence feeling unwanted so, I can seem distant and like I don’t like the people I most like sometimes due to my uncertainty.
I tend to tease my friends a lot but in my old age, I also have grown to feel compelled to exhibit slightly nurturing tendencies toward my friends. Or at least I try to help them with my understandings of them and what they may need. Although I’m not really a good person to be friends with because I can be a total jerk sometimes as well.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
I’m a little more quiet and aloof around strangers unless we have an objective.