Sisparill
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- Joined
- Mar 18, 2021
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- MBTI Type
- ENFP
- Enneagram
- 4w5
1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)? Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire? Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
26 years old, Scandinavia! In terms of impairments I'm dealing with anxiety issues and depression which I'm taking medication for. Will in a few weeks sign up for an ADD investigation.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
I have decided on one and pretty sure about it too! After days of research, pinpointing and discovery I've come to terms that I must be an ENFP 4w5 so/sx. Pretty damn sure of it. As i imagine is with many others, there are tiny tiny details which you can relate to in other types but as a whole and the various distinctions of the core types it hits very close to home.
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
Honestly. I have no idea and have spent my whole life figuring it out. Setting high ambitions and objectives for myself I never seem to be able to reach or complete. But one thing has always been consistant which is connecting with people. Not to be too self-absorbed here but I have received comments that my enthusiasm, curiousity and insights are valuable. And often feel like I need to impose/share myself on others for them to truly realise certain things. (Damn that sounds sick lol) But been trying to emphasise those good qualities to... I don't know. Use them somewhere?
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I'd say a combination of sloth and envy. In recent years I've become very stagnant. It's been hurting my inner desire to change, which is paradoxical because I also have anxiety and fear of change. Almost like a shame. My outer shell does not talk about the envy of others but people who do know me know that I tend to compare myself to others way too much. Which is also hurting my own identity, whatever that truly is.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
In terms of romantic interest, I like intelligent, charismatic people. People who are self-confident is a major turn on and if they are skilled speakers and listeners that's just really nice. In reality though I think I have settled for people who seem slightly naive and dumb about things. Forcing them (Not by will) to become an extension of my identity. After 4 years in a toxic relationship I realised I was dulling my own needs to please my partner (Complex story but I just wasn't allowed to be my true self). Ultimately realising this I was able to end it.
In terms of friends I've been drawn to people who enjoy long discussions about life, philosophy, concepts and ideas. It is incrediby stimulating as I get more curious about them and how they think and feel. People who are not afraid to take every single thing seriously and enjoy adult play but not ultra energetic.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
I want to write a good answer here but I would say most people are drawn to me. There are people who I believe would find me annoying, sometimes demanding, hard to deal with and not logical. Which is only one side of the coin, externally. Most times I need to dismiss people as they've taken too much interest in me when the feeling is not mutual. But people who like to talk I guess!
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Inside the box thinkers. Over-positive selfish people. Ambitious people. Inconfident people who follow rules and norms for security.
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
I really wish I was more diligent. Other people seem to be fucking experts on completing tasks, and doing what other people tell them to do. It is "admirable" and I wish I had more of that.
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
I always used to say "I'm never angry". It's true. It's a repressed feeling from my childhood and something I need to deal with as an adult. I see anger as losing control of what matters in a lot of situations. I can still feel Frustration and irritation but it never gets to any extremes. When people have seen me "Angry" it's explosive and instant. Over in seconds.
b) Shame
Oh boy... This goes up and down. Sometimes I take pride in my true self and what I "feel" I can accomplish. It is de facto that I don't which gives me incredible guilt and shame. Shame for the situation I am in. Shame for not doing more and realising myself more. List goes on usually at that point. But I'm trying to work on it.
c) Fear
My anxiety stems from fear. Fear of change specifically. It's a constant internal battle. I fear of being ordinary and for things to go smoothly. Something in me sets a kind of limit in my abilities and I feel fear to cross that limit. This has got be thinking that there's something wrong with me and only me. Talking to people who are "normal" experiencing the same feeling helps. Or therapy. Or discussions about why it is the way it is with fear.
d) Love/passion
I seem to be inable to do things that I don't feel passion for. Even as I'm writing this my brain get's so enthusiastic because it's lets me put down my thoughts in text while thinking of a million things at the same time. I need to stop myself from not writing too much as it feels like ALL of it wants to come out. But it's really because I'm interested in hearing what you guys have to say though! My romantic relationships have always been dysfunctional however. Don't need to go into detail. But I've realised I like the excitement of love at first sight and can sometimes become obessive in those feelings/thoughts only to later realise it wasn't actually true. Yeah strong instant love like that is like crack lol.
e) Conflict
I feel conflict stems from ignorance and misunderstanding. I want to understand other people and concepts, constantly searching for what makes them or it the way they are which deepens my understanding for them. When they are in contrast to me or wrong, I tend to challenge them. But do not see myself as a good debater. People have told me I have interesting thoughts and insights but just doesn't have that striking "logos" which a lot of people crave sometimes.
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, ect)?
Mentioned it a bit earlier but I seem to be doing so many different things all the time, but only for a short period of time and never actually following through. Not to say I dont have hobbies and interests though. Prominent themes would be philosophing about absolutely everything. Trying to understand how stuff fits together, both in people and structures, although with structures I tend to stay with abstract definitions and the bigger picture most of the times rather than A connects to B and to C and so on.(Fucking impossible to do logical thinking)
Another theme would be creativity. I feel most comfortable accessing my artistic side. Whether it's in painting, music, theatre, art. You name it. I'm not a master by any means in any of them but would say I have a great artistic sense.
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) [College aged and above] What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
I studied Japanese Linguistics for 4 years. Also included Chinese and Japanese history for 6 months and rhetorics for 6 months. Why? God knows. I left my hometown in search of something new thinking I never make up my mind. It felt exciting to have decided on something and actually moving to do it. Quickly grew tired of it and decided to not over-achieve but kind of go along with it, doing what I could. Have always had a natural feel for languages and I'm surprised that I can converse in Japanese now. Never took my bachelor's degree though as the last semester stressed me out. I wasn't ready writing a thesis and my relationship was so bad I couldnt focus, anxiety grew, depression grew etc. So I never finished my education. Studying rhetorics though was fucking awesome. The academic side of it is always boring but the performing, the learning, the discovering and listening was amazing. Also got a lot of attention as having a unique way of talking, writing and thinking which really boosted my self-confidence. Lack of proper academic effort however could sometimes give me anxiety and frustration.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Looks and their eyes. Some people have that charm about them that becomes mesmerizing. But personality wise, definitely a sense of humor. If they are relaxed or not, if they are open minded to my sillyness especially. If they're not, I can't deal with them. Become rather impersonal but have no trouble expressing thoughts or feelings if they really want to know I guess.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I believe in people but I believe we are brainwashed from the day we are born to behave, think and act a certain way. In my mind everything in the world that "is" already, is counterintuitive, corrupt and injust. if people could realise this I think our real insticts kick in such as solidarity and we can become free. Biggest problem right now is global warming, corporatism and capitalism. It's quite ridiculous how little control the majority of people have over their lives but how strongly they believe they do or can achieve in the near future. Forget it. Y'all are chained down.
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
Since I've written quite a lot already I'll try to be brief here and not explain too much about them. I enjoy avant garde art in any form. Theatre. Writing sometimes. Communicating with people. Japanese TV shows. Jazz fusion. Playing online games.
13) How do you usually “hang out†with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
It's much more fun to hang out with 1 or 2 more people. Since the pandemic started I haven't done a lot if any "hanging out" that same way but still feel that longing for human connection sometimes. I then reach out to a friend asking if they'd like to talk so lots of phone calls I guess. 1 on 1 is great cause we can give each other a lot of attention. Never been a big group person and tend to become a little uncomfortable and reserved. As if not quite fitting in and not agreeing with most people. Before the pandemic it couldve been walks and coffeeshops where we could talk. Movie nights. Talking has usually been the emphasis. Not been one to do exciting activities all the time like travelling, going to the cinema, parties etc. Though they have of course also happened.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Being someone who is very unable to express myself in concrete actions, I'd say words. Everyone is capable of refining their mind but not everyone is suited to improve their psychical weaknesses.
In the bigger scope of things though, I truly believe in radical change and unified commitment to ideals. So, actions.
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose….
a) To never be able to experience the sensation of taste
b) To be immortal
c) To lose your memories
d) To be poor for the rest of your life
e) Or to never experience passion
Elaborate on why!
Hah! D for sure. In our society it would limit some possiblities, yes but that's not what matters. It's our experiences and what we can bring to the table, not what fucking house you live in or can afford.
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
I do not want to become a conformist or someone who loses their true self(whatever that is).
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
It's tough. I can easily lock myself in my apartment for days because one single thing was so interesting I have to continue doing it. Only lasts for a few days go before returning back to my obligations and the real world. Right now, like I said, things are very uniform and stagnant. Because of the pandemic and my depression.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
Organized for 1 minute, messy for 59. In the past, during lectures, I took notes yeah! But never went back to them and relied on others to have done more comprehensive notes. I seldom clean and tidy up. My desk usually messy and so is everything else but I guess I'd say I KIND OF know where things are anyway. In terms of sorting my thoughts, No way. I need someone else usually to remind me where my thoughts were going. Or sometimes I tend to discover it myself, usually mid-conversation.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
Deep satisfaction, Genuine attention and getting room to express myself are very important comforts. I have very few dear friends who are very important to me, or so I'd like to think. Rest of the people are just acquaintances. Don't mean they're not important though! I find comfort in having people understand me and giving their care/intellect to me to become a better person. This is also something I LOOOOOOOVE doing back. Making people realise stuff about themselves or about ideas and all that is extremely satisfying. If three traits were to describe me I'd say charming, unique and imaginative. Oh and maybe smart even though I know I'm not. Feeling those traits gives me incredible comfort.
Edit:
4w5
7w8
9w8
so/sx
^
Writing this down so I don't forget later. Anyone is free to take a stab at this. Been reading lots of different combinations descriptions distinctions it's so interesting but also a little draining. Gonna sleep on it and see what I find tomorrow!
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)? Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire? Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
26 years old, Scandinavia! In terms of impairments I'm dealing with anxiety issues and depression which I'm taking medication for. Will in a few weeks sign up for an ADD investigation.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
I have decided on one and pretty sure about it too! After days of research, pinpointing and discovery I've come to terms that I must be an ENFP 4w5 so/sx. Pretty damn sure of it. As i imagine is with many others, there are tiny tiny details which you can relate to in other types but as a whole and the various distinctions of the core types it hits very close to home.
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
Honestly. I have no idea and have spent my whole life figuring it out. Setting high ambitions and objectives for myself I never seem to be able to reach or complete. But one thing has always been consistant which is connecting with people. Not to be too self-absorbed here but I have received comments that my enthusiasm, curiousity and insights are valuable. And often feel like I need to impose/share myself on others for them to truly realise certain things. (Damn that sounds sick lol) But been trying to emphasise those good qualities to... I don't know. Use them somewhere?
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I'd say a combination of sloth and envy. In recent years I've become very stagnant. It's been hurting my inner desire to change, which is paradoxical because I also have anxiety and fear of change. Almost like a shame. My outer shell does not talk about the envy of others but people who do know me know that I tend to compare myself to others way too much. Which is also hurting my own identity, whatever that truly is.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
In terms of romantic interest, I like intelligent, charismatic people. People who are self-confident is a major turn on and if they are skilled speakers and listeners that's just really nice. In reality though I think I have settled for people who seem slightly naive and dumb about things. Forcing them (Not by will) to become an extension of my identity. After 4 years in a toxic relationship I realised I was dulling my own needs to please my partner (Complex story but I just wasn't allowed to be my true self). Ultimately realising this I was able to end it.
In terms of friends I've been drawn to people who enjoy long discussions about life, philosophy, concepts and ideas. It is incrediby stimulating as I get more curious about them and how they think and feel. People who are not afraid to take every single thing seriously and enjoy adult play but not ultra energetic.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
I want to write a good answer here but I would say most people are drawn to me. There are people who I believe would find me annoying, sometimes demanding, hard to deal with and not logical. Which is only one side of the coin, externally. Most times I need to dismiss people as they've taken too much interest in me when the feeling is not mutual. But people who like to talk I guess!
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Inside the box thinkers. Over-positive selfish people. Ambitious people. Inconfident people who follow rules and norms for security.
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
I really wish I was more diligent. Other people seem to be fucking experts on completing tasks, and doing what other people tell them to do. It is "admirable" and I wish I had more of that.
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
I always used to say "I'm never angry". It's true. It's a repressed feeling from my childhood and something I need to deal with as an adult. I see anger as losing control of what matters in a lot of situations. I can still feel Frustration and irritation but it never gets to any extremes. When people have seen me "Angry" it's explosive and instant. Over in seconds.
b) Shame
Oh boy... This goes up and down. Sometimes I take pride in my true self and what I "feel" I can accomplish. It is de facto that I don't which gives me incredible guilt and shame. Shame for the situation I am in. Shame for not doing more and realising myself more. List goes on usually at that point. But I'm trying to work on it.
c) Fear
My anxiety stems from fear. Fear of change specifically. It's a constant internal battle. I fear of being ordinary and for things to go smoothly. Something in me sets a kind of limit in my abilities and I feel fear to cross that limit. This has got be thinking that there's something wrong with me and only me. Talking to people who are "normal" experiencing the same feeling helps. Or therapy. Or discussions about why it is the way it is with fear.
d) Love/passion
I seem to be inable to do things that I don't feel passion for. Even as I'm writing this my brain get's so enthusiastic because it's lets me put down my thoughts in text while thinking of a million things at the same time. I need to stop myself from not writing too much as it feels like ALL of it wants to come out. But it's really because I'm interested in hearing what you guys have to say though! My romantic relationships have always been dysfunctional however. Don't need to go into detail. But I've realised I like the excitement of love at first sight and can sometimes become obessive in those feelings/thoughts only to later realise it wasn't actually true. Yeah strong instant love like that is like crack lol.
e) Conflict
I feel conflict stems from ignorance and misunderstanding. I want to understand other people and concepts, constantly searching for what makes them or it the way they are which deepens my understanding for them. When they are in contrast to me or wrong, I tend to challenge them. But do not see myself as a good debater. People have told me I have interesting thoughts and insights but just doesn't have that striking "logos" which a lot of people crave sometimes.
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, ect)?
Mentioned it a bit earlier but I seem to be doing so many different things all the time, but only for a short period of time and never actually following through. Not to say I dont have hobbies and interests though. Prominent themes would be philosophing about absolutely everything. Trying to understand how stuff fits together, both in people and structures, although with structures I tend to stay with abstract definitions and the bigger picture most of the times rather than A connects to B and to C and so on.(Fucking impossible to do logical thinking)
Another theme would be creativity. I feel most comfortable accessing my artistic side. Whether it's in painting, music, theatre, art. You name it. I'm not a master by any means in any of them but would say I have a great artistic sense.
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) [College aged and above] What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
I studied Japanese Linguistics for 4 years. Also included Chinese and Japanese history for 6 months and rhetorics for 6 months. Why? God knows. I left my hometown in search of something new thinking I never make up my mind. It felt exciting to have decided on something and actually moving to do it. Quickly grew tired of it and decided to not over-achieve but kind of go along with it, doing what I could. Have always had a natural feel for languages and I'm surprised that I can converse in Japanese now. Never took my bachelor's degree though as the last semester stressed me out. I wasn't ready writing a thesis and my relationship was so bad I couldnt focus, anxiety grew, depression grew etc. So I never finished my education. Studying rhetorics though was fucking awesome. The academic side of it is always boring but the performing, the learning, the discovering and listening was amazing. Also got a lot of attention as having a unique way of talking, writing and thinking which really boosted my self-confidence. Lack of proper academic effort however could sometimes give me anxiety and frustration.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Looks and their eyes. Some people have that charm about them that becomes mesmerizing. But personality wise, definitely a sense of humor. If they are relaxed or not, if they are open minded to my sillyness especially. If they're not, I can't deal with them. Become rather impersonal but have no trouble expressing thoughts or feelings if they really want to know I guess.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I believe in people but I believe we are brainwashed from the day we are born to behave, think and act a certain way. In my mind everything in the world that "is" already, is counterintuitive, corrupt and injust. if people could realise this I think our real insticts kick in such as solidarity and we can become free. Biggest problem right now is global warming, corporatism and capitalism. It's quite ridiculous how little control the majority of people have over their lives but how strongly they believe they do or can achieve in the near future. Forget it. Y'all are chained down.
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
Since I've written quite a lot already I'll try to be brief here and not explain too much about them. I enjoy avant garde art in any form. Theatre. Writing sometimes. Communicating with people. Japanese TV shows. Jazz fusion. Playing online games.
13) How do you usually “hang out†with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
It's much more fun to hang out with 1 or 2 more people. Since the pandemic started I haven't done a lot if any "hanging out" that same way but still feel that longing for human connection sometimes. I then reach out to a friend asking if they'd like to talk so lots of phone calls I guess. 1 on 1 is great cause we can give each other a lot of attention. Never been a big group person and tend to become a little uncomfortable and reserved. As if not quite fitting in and not agreeing with most people. Before the pandemic it couldve been walks and coffeeshops where we could talk. Movie nights. Talking has usually been the emphasis. Not been one to do exciting activities all the time like travelling, going to the cinema, parties etc. Though they have of course also happened.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Being someone who is very unable to express myself in concrete actions, I'd say words. Everyone is capable of refining their mind but not everyone is suited to improve their psychical weaknesses.
In the bigger scope of things though, I truly believe in radical change and unified commitment to ideals. So, actions.
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose….
a) To never be able to experience the sensation of taste
b) To be immortal
c) To lose your memories
d) To be poor for the rest of your life
e) Or to never experience passion
Elaborate on why!
Hah! D for sure. In our society it would limit some possiblities, yes but that's not what matters. It's our experiences and what we can bring to the table, not what fucking house you live in or can afford.
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
I do not want to become a conformist or someone who loses their true self(whatever that is).
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
It's tough. I can easily lock myself in my apartment for days because one single thing was so interesting I have to continue doing it. Only lasts for a few days go before returning back to my obligations and the real world. Right now, like I said, things are very uniform and stagnant. Because of the pandemic and my depression.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
Organized for 1 minute, messy for 59. In the past, during lectures, I took notes yeah! But never went back to them and relied on others to have done more comprehensive notes. I seldom clean and tidy up. My desk usually messy and so is everything else but I guess I'd say I KIND OF know where things are anyway. In terms of sorting my thoughts, No way. I need someone else usually to remind me where my thoughts were going. Or sometimes I tend to discover it myself, usually mid-conversation.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
Deep satisfaction, Genuine attention and getting room to express myself are very important comforts. I have very few dear friends who are very important to me, or so I'd like to think. Rest of the people are just acquaintances. Don't mean they're not important though! I find comfort in having people understand me and giving their care/intellect to me to become a better person. This is also something I LOOOOOOOVE doing back. Making people realise stuff about themselves or about ideas and all that is extremely satisfying. If three traits were to describe me I'd say charming, unique and imaginative. Oh and maybe smart even though I know I'm not. Feeling those traits gives me incredible comfort.
Edit:
4w5
7w8
9w8
so/sx
^
Writing this down so I don't forget later. Anyone is free to take a stab at this. Been reading lots of different combinations descriptions distinctions it's so interesting but also a little draining. Gonna sleep on it and see what I find tomorrow!
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