Thanks for your input [MENTION=29687]Frosty[/MENTION] and [MENTION=30122]Cat Brainz[/MENTION]! So, I’ll share something that has had me personally leaning towards 9, one who is integrating into 3 (or trying to), and will respond to both of your posts.
I generally hold the desire to remain as self sufficient as possible, and if need be, struggle along the way to get to where I need to go. Not because I don’t suspect others can help, but because I don’t wish to waste the time of others to expend energy on lifting me up in the process. Much of that comes from years of being seen as merely a “Dreamer†and not a “Do-erâ€. I’ve been told on countless ocasions that I have much to offer the world, but that I am not doing enough to fully utilize those talents. I’ve created some things that may impress others, but that doesn’t mean much to me, except that I wish to define for myself, to myself, that I can make something of myself. That I have fully realized what I am capable of becoming, because I do know I have a talent, but for whatever reason, I just don’t “Doâ€. Or, I just don’t do enough.
When others do reach out to me to help, even after I’ve denied the need, it does mean a lot to me, and I can never feel I can show my gratitude enough, because I know they have taken the time out of their day and schedule, expended their mental or emotional energy, on me. And why?
When I extend my hand to others, it often comes down to asking myself, “why not?â€. If it doesn’t pull me too far from my schedule, or require much effort from me, and I have the ability and capacity to help, why not? Mind you, this is for the average person or acquaintance. Favors for those I love however, aren’t put under the same consideration.
Tying into the above, I also find that I feel my best when I am not just productive, moving forward and such, but feel as though I am in my element and realizing that image others have seen of me, and what I see of myself. The product lines up with expectation and ability, so to speak, and there is no deficit. It’s this deeper alignment I wish to fulfill too. If I were granted the image superficially, like if I came into a lot of money and bought new clothes and a car, whatever, and strangers assumed my status to be higher, that would put me off in the same way and would feel no better to me.
Does the above make any sense? I sort of just put some thoughts together as they came.