Ender
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- Jan 12, 2008
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Do I put myself on a pedestal?.. Well yes and no.
The only time I really put myself on a pedestal so to speak is when it comes to my ability to do things physically. It's about the only time I'll be dominant and full of myself. As for when I fall, which at times I do, how I handle it really depends on a situational basis. Most of the times, I'll just get right back up and tackle the issue again till I get it right. Though sometimes through falling I'll realize that it's not something I can do and move on.
Where I don't is when it comes to anything involving myself and other people on a personal/mental level. I don't deal with others all that well, and it's usually people who know me that put me on the pedestal, and I usually resent them for it and try to convince them that I don't belong up there. It kinda reminds me of something my mother once said to me years ago.. "You go out of your way to help others when they need it, yet when you need help you act as if you don't deserve it.. You need to stop that.. You aren't worthless."
I guess in the end, I tend to put others on the pedestal. It's most likely do to my life up until this point. I've lead a very solitary life, I'll be 29 this month and I've yet to meet anyone that I feel I can fully open up and talk to, and not be afraid of being who I really am around. Including my one friend who I've known for 18yrs now or either of my parents. However I don't fault the people in my life for it though, I am the way I am, and they are the way they are.. I'm not one of those people who blame others for their own personal deficiencies and I generally despise those who do, especially if by doing so they effect my life.
The only time I really put myself on a pedestal so to speak is when it comes to my ability to do things physically. It's about the only time I'll be dominant and full of myself. As for when I fall, which at times I do, how I handle it really depends on a situational basis. Most of the times, I'll just get right back up and tackle the issue again till I get it right. Though sometimes through falling I'll realize that it's not something I can do and move on.
Where I don't is when it comes to anything involving myself and other people on a personal/mental level. I don't deal with others all that well, and it's usually people who know me that put me on the pedestal, and I usually resent them for it and try to convince them that I don't belong up there. It kinda reminds me of something my mother once said to me years ago.. "You go out of your way to help others when they need it, yet when you need help you act as if you don't deserve it.. You need to stop that.. You aren't worthless."
I guess in the end, I tend to put others on the pedestal. It's most likely do to my life up until this point. I've lead a very solitary life, I'll be 29 this month and I've yet to meet anyone that I feel I can fully open up and talk to, and not be afraid of being who I really am around. Including my one friend who I've known for 18yrs now or either of my parents. However I don't fault the people in my life for it though, I am the way I am, and they are the way they are.. I'm not one of those people who blame others for their own personal deficiencies and I generally despise those who do, especially if by doing so they effect my life.