Thalassa
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I am really thankful that I went from practically having a nervous breakdown this morning ...
Remember guys?
"It's so easy to blow up your problems. It's so easy to play up your breakdown. It's so easy to fly through a window. It's so easy to fool with the sound."
...to having the Moving in Stereo state of zen.
Ask and ye shall receive. Be careful when asking God/universe to put in your path the thing you need most for your spiritual growth. YOU WILL GET IT.
And I got it in this hyper-symbolic way!!! Today is Good Friday. It's the Christ was crucified part of Easter, or in other pagan faiths, the death part of the life cycle. Change. Change can be unpleasant, horrible, something we're resistant to.
So I was faced with ISFJ drama this morning, but the right thing to do is look into my wounds and see what it's teaching me, what it's telling me about myself and my life.
It's not just about acceptance. It's about me making some changes. In the Tao of Meow, the cat tells us if we are indecisive kitty and we cannot decide if we want in or out the kitchen door, sometimes the Tao comes along and makes the decision for us, by booting our tail out the door.
That's all that happened to me today. Not that I was indecisive about ISFJ. It's about something else, and deeper things, which I never talk about here.
It actually makes me think that by Easter there will be a re-birth. Where God closes a door he opens a window. Sometimes sorrows come to clear out a space for new delights (some Iyengar quote my yoga instructors frequently say).
Also, I do want to add here, that I think ISFJ is just having some of his own mental issues. I should be forgiving toward him, because this ex thing doesn't even make sense. It's not an ex-wife, and they've been split up for QUITE A WHILE. I mean a while. I've known him since August, and he hasn't talked to her lately.
So I almost think this is some headspace junk he needs to clear through. One of my friends said "wait, he's moving too fast, he can't be with you all that time, and just be with you a few days ago, and then just get back with his ex, he's fucking himself up, he'll realize that he's also thinking about you and not over you; it will just be a mess. Maybe in a week or two of being around her he'll remember why they broke up and be over it."
I think that's what it is. I could be wrong. I mean if he really wants to be with her, then I have to forgive him, no matter how difficult it is, and bless him and move forward, because I don't want to be with some guy who isn't right for me anyway.
And if I'm right, then he'll be back. Like clockwork.
Remember guys?
"It's so easy to blow up your problems. It's so easy to play up your breakdown. It's so easy to fly through a window. It's so easy to fool with the sound."
...to having the Moving in Stereo state of zen.
Ask and ye shall receive. Be careful when asking God/universe to put in your path the thing you need most for your spiritual growth. YOU WILL GET IT.
And I got it in this hyper-symbolic way!!! Today is Good Friday. It's the Christ was crucified part of Easter, or in other pagan faiths, the death part of the life cycle. Change. Change can be unpleasant, horrible, something we're resistant to.
So I was faced with ISFJ drama this morning, but the right thing to do is look into my wounds and see what it's teaching me, what it's telling me about myself and my life.
It's not just about acceptance. It's about me making some changes. In the Tao of Meow, the cat tells us if we are indecisive kitty and we cannot decide if we want in or out the kitchen door, sometimes the Tao comes along and makes the decision for us, by booting our tail out the door.
That's all that happened to me today. Not that I was indecisive about ISFJ. It's about something else, and deeper things, which I never talk about here.
It actually makes me think that by Easter there will be a re-birth. Where God closes a door he opens a window. Sometimes sorrows come to clear out a space for new delights (some Iyengar quote my yoga instructors frequently say).
Also, I do want to add here, that I think ISFJ is just having some of his own mental issues. I should be forgiving toward him, because this ex thing doesn't even make sense. It's not an ex-wife, and they've been split up for QUITE A WHILE. I mean a while. I've known him since August, and he hasn't talked to her lately.
So I almost think this is some headspace junk he needs to clear through. One of my friends said "wait, he's moving too fast, he can't be with you all that time, and just be with you a few days ago, and then just get back with his ex, he's fucking himself up, he'll realize that he's also thinking about you and not over you; it will just be a mess. Maybe in a week or two of being around her he'll remember why they broke up and be over it."
I think that's what it is. I could be wrong. I mean if he really wants to be with her, then I have to forgive him, no matter how difficult it is, and bless him and move forward, because I don't want to be with some guy who isn't right for me anyway.
And if I'm right, then he'll be back. Like clockwork.
