Lady Lazarus
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- Joined
- Jun 30, 2014
- Messages
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- MBTI Type
- INFJ
- Enneagram
- 9w8
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/sp
I don't want to be an sx dom anymore, I quit.
I feel like the joke aspect of this overshadowed the seriousness in that whenever I percieve myself to be identifying with a type the way 18 year old me did, I immediately feel the urge to get far far away from it. That is, being defined makes me so uncomfortable. Fighting for my basic bitch typing was my way of resisting the mode of my younger not awake self. It was never that I clung to it for identity, not at all. There isnt even an actual heuristic to identify with on that one. That was very different. But continuing the pattern of defiance in the direction I seem to be doing so is pointless. I think I have "grown past typology" and that it has allowed me to address these niches I couldn't otherwise and therefore grow in these ways I couldn't otherwise. And that is enough. I do not need it to tell me who I am at this point. Need isnt something I feel toward this anymore. Which is to say, I know how to grow now in this niche way and what I have to do in order to do so even more or more completely. Thus, I quit. I think I simply wanted to make sure it wasn't over something corrupt like it being because I am the most common of human beings (ISFJ 9) in these systems. But being destabilized in my types by others doesnt hurt at all and so I know that I can trust myself when I say it is not because of that at all.