Laxton
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- Joined
- Apr 10, 2016
- Messages
- 43
- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 864
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/so
That was confusing, I apologize. Why did you change your mind about your type?
At first, I just didn't see myself being able to identify with any of the xNTJ types because I saw myself as a pretty lazy person. This was back when I used the 4 letters to determine what my type was. The Myers-Briggs type description for ENTJ or INTJ didn't seem to fit me either. I saw myself as an intuitive thinker and a perceiver, but didn't see myself as an introvert. This was originally how I decided that I was an ENTP.
However, upon further researching of the functions and what they are, I realized that my Ne is not one of my stronger functions. My strongest function is Te, and upon thinking further I can see why. The cognitiveprocesses.com description of Te says that "In written or verbal communication, extraverted Thinking helps us easily follow someone else's logic, sequence, or organization."
I find myself doing that quite often. In conversation, I find it very easily to see where another person is coming from. I can tell whether their opinions are based on their feelings, or whether their logical progression is missing a piece of information that makes the conclusion that they have drawn incorrect. I can pick apart any argument that I believe to have faulty logic, pick it apart, and piece it together in a way that makes sense to the other person.
Upon further introspection, I could say that I was formerly a damaged ENTJ. When I was little, I loved to learn. I read quite a lot, and I was a really big talker. I had no problem being organized and turning in assignments to my teacher. I was also pretty bossy, which seems to be a defining characteristic of ENTJs.
Despite this, however, my parents moved around a lot and I found myself having to make new friends very frequently. They split up when I was very young as well, which I feel has affected the dynamic of my immediate family greatly.
I took the 16personalities test a long time ago and scored as an INTP-T during my high school years. However, this was in the middle of my adolescence and I don't believe the results at that point in time to be reliable, as I was a very insecure and shy person at that point in time. I was also kicked out of my dad's home after getting in a fight with my INTJ stepmother.
I was put into a new school district with a curriculum that did not challenge me in the slightest. I was put in classes that were a year behind what I took previously, and quickly developed a reputation as one of the smartest kids in my class. The other students there struck me as generally unintelligent and the classes felt so below me that I got bored. In fact, I got so bored that I lost my motivation to turn assignments in on time because I believed them to be rudimentary, mind-numbing bullshit. I graduated with a 3.16 GPA despite having the capability to graduate as the top of my class. Before i entered this high school I never fell asleep in a class in my life, and during high school I slept through at least 2 of my class periods on a daily basis.
I am very close friends with our school valedictorian (as well as most of the students that graduated top 10 in my class), and she thought that I was much smarter than her, and couldn't understand why I was so lazy. My teachers always got frustrated with me because of this, because they thought I was a genius. My chemistry teacher referred to me as "the school's biggest underachiever," and my AP Calculus teacher said in a parent-teacher conference that I was a "smart kid, but a TERRIBLE student." My physics teacher got mad at me when I asked her to give me extra credit, shouting that I was "a math genius" and couldn't understand why I wasn't able to get an A in her class on my own.
Upon further growing up, developing confidence, and being further exposed to the world, I can confidently say that I'm an ENTJ. However, I was an emotionally damaged and unmotivated ENTJ until very recently. I didn't have a goal in mind, and wandered aimlessly throughout my high school years. I didn't find any motivation to work harder until I started college, and I appreciate the looser reins that are on me as far as a student. I find myself more appreciative of the fact that my ability to succeed is dependent on my own individual ability and diligence. I love the freedom given to me, and it has made me more inclined to focus on my responisibilities.