Monday

[heart]

First off I want to say..That I hope no one thinks I don't love my husband or something. I do love him very much. I am a long time married person and life is complicated. (19 years together, 18 years married.)

It isn't like the day you get married everything is frozen in some perfect state forever, it remains a growing and changing relationship. You go through ups and downs and frustrations, good and bad times, times when you let each other down...just like everyone else in a relationship.

We've had some really stressful years. He's had a lot of job stress and I have been having the vertigo/exhaustion issues for over a decade. It takes a toll and sometimes I feel like I am going insane. Just want to stress that none of us live perfect lives or are perfect people. I don't want to give a distorted picture of my life. We all have our human sides and shortcomings.

 

[Geoff]

I can't speak for others, but I could tell you were just venting some bad stuff in an otherwise good relationship. If it had no ups and down it wouldn't be worth experiencing!

 

[cafe]

*nods* Marriage is a dynamic thing and it seems every season has it's ups and downs.

I've always loved my husband very much, but you could not pay me to go back to the years when I had multiple kids in diapers. Don is, shall we say, liberated in mind, but not in habit and those were some overwhelming years. Someday I may think of those years as a cake walk, but at the moment, I still feel like I'm on a comparative vacation.

Just because you love your partner deeply and devotedly doesn't mean you don't want to throttle them or hit them upside the head with a cast iron skillet from time to time.

 

[heart]

Thanks Geoff, for understanding that.

Thanks Cafe for being so understanding, open and honest.