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Function wise, you don't seem to be exuding Fe as an Fe dom may, nor have inferior Ti. Your Se is atrocious, aka inferiorINFJ fits better.
Yeah my Se isn't developed in a sense where it actually comes into real-time present moment bliss with things, although sometimes I can trust my Se and things just happen but rationally it just doesn't make sense I can't just break the physical intuition into steps for repetition or so I won't make a mistake again. It doesn't give consistent results.
I don't know how you can measure Se on a forum like this anyway, but fair enough if you're taking my word in the past. If you are measuring it, tell me how.
Thank you for your input magpie, (I don't expect a reply for what I am about to say):
Yeah, I don't see it very clear however the judging functions are such a horrid mix that I can't take one over the other and simply say in doubt in my mind this is the judging set I prefer (Fe/Ti, Ti/Fe, Fi/Te, Te,Fi). Ne and Si are easily lesser used by me. Although Ni can seem similar to Si in some ways with recognition but not exactly.
Beebe's model is both interesting and frustrating as he says the perception function has to be balanced with it's judging attitude in the opposite orientation and vice versa but it's limiting because I feel as I introvert more than I extrovert but at the same time there are modes where I have a very extroverted/introverted ping pong match in myself that I can't tell which is which. Small ideas grow and dissipate in my head. Sometimes immediately helpful sometimes not.
I stopped being profoundly vision-oriented because my vision wasn't matched and I have a hard time staying focused in life because I essentially worked and succeeded was essentially founded upon a subjective lie. (Is this a value or a principle I am not wanting to violate?) Philosophically it just doesn't vibe well, but I did whatever it took surprisingly. (Ti vs Te)
I use my lower parts of Ni quite frequently but not the most developed parts enough which is if I am an Ni dom, I am supposed to take advantage and use those as my strengths to offer the world.
Fe wise, I can go on and off periods of fear of offending others. There are days at work where I can be offended easily and others where it's like pfft it's so inconsequential it doesn't offend me and it can be the very same statement (obviously different situations as it doesn't happen in the exact moment). When I see Fe used by others an alarm goes off saying Fake fake fake this person is manipulating me, I just have to accept it because I don't want to disrupt harmony. (Fi) Even when I use Fe to get a goal or situation to be in a positive or negative atmosphere it's like who am I to say I should change life the way I want it? I start having perceiving vs. judging wars in my psyche. My P and J are balanced in a way where I'm unpredictable and indecisive.
I am analytical in an Ni way just like my last statement ^ I only keep moving and shifting perspectives in my mind but to not of a practical use for me or even informationally for others. (Not Te/Ti)
But then when I get really into something like let's say chemistry. I dive in the in's and out's of the theory but no one can relate because suddenly I surpassed what all the students really cared to get out of the subject and I am alone again (could be Ti but Fe cries for unity and cohesion).
I want to make changes in my life to get to where I want to go but at the same time, shouldn't I be happy and live a very ordinary life? Couldn't I find happiness in the present moment? What's good of the future if it may crumble apart (Ni vs Se)?
