I know I shouldn't... occasionally, I am 100% focused and driven and forget to eat/sleep/that I have to pee, etc. when I'm attached to a project.
But I find when I need to study for school my brain takes vacations all the time; I try to do 3 things at once or I can't help but roleplay conversations with friends, etc. in my head while I'm trying to understand something that definitely requires focus. My grades reflect that; the only classes where I'm living up to my true potential are the few with profs I really respect and want to show them I can do well in their class.
I wonder if this is because I was an above-average student when I was younger, but certainly not marks-driven... and I never properly learned to concentrate? That is, I never learned how to focus my attention? And now, in university, it's showing that I got by with "just enough" concentration but it's not working anymore?
I'm still a really solid student but I certainly am not living up to my potential.
Some people find it hard to concentrate when they are not inspired or interested in what they are doing. I'm think many INTJs might say something like, 'when I'm concentrating I can find it very interesting,' (or something along those lines) but of course the main problem isn't that, it is getting the motivation to settle down and concentrate on something with a more intense focus to begin with--and in that sense, that is why I bring up that maybe you are not too interested? I'm sure it has some great part in some goals to get X job, get X steady salary and pursue other desire after such is established, but it kind-of still can't break that idea of who you are now. The need you have at this immediate moment versus the needs you are developing for 5 years into the future etc., and reconciling those can be difficult.
Another solution might be to try finding points in your studies that particularly interest you are bringing those to the fore of your focus when you're studying : )
Also, everyone perhaps is trying to reach their potential, and it's ok to not reach it, but as long as you're trying--then you know that in any case, you're moving in the right direction ; ) But the hard part is confronting oneself and asking 'what potential do I want in myself and why?' [etc.]
[SNIP]When I do get in the 'zone' of deep concentration, I also forget to eat, pee, and all that. Maybe one reason for the dichotomy is that I only really value that deep concentration for making meaningful progress, so when I don't have the energy, or enough oxygen to my brain, I am left in a state of flux. [SNIP]Those things I manage to produce in that state are my best and provide the deepest satisfaction I ever feel.
Yeah definitely! Teh 'zone' is the stuff ; ) It's almost as if the world is opening up before our eyes. This is actually on my to-do list, but to see if I can manifest those mental 'moments' of teh 'zone' at will--whether I have built up to that moment or not

I mean, imagine what we could do if teh 'zone' was accessible as a more normal state for us?! Does that mean we could create a state that is even deeper than that!?
I can get a little depressed when I fail to achieve deeper concentration for some time.
Yeah, kind-of like--if we can't go all the way, we don't want to half-ass it as it probably won't get us any good results, or will waste even more energy trying than we could have spent being more productive in something else.
[SNIP]Today for example, I did absolutely nothing for minutes at a time. Not introspecting either, just doing… nothing.
It’s angst!!
Sometimes it can be good for us to just sit back and let our mind wander. It can allow our brains to organize data in different ways than otherwise : ) Just sooooaaakkk ittttt innnnnnnn and eeennnnnjjooooyyyy thhhee nooooottthhiiinnnnnngggnneesssssss
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lol here's a rare glisp at the darkside of INTJs and their motivation/true study habits people...make sure to take notes
