Silveresque
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[MENTION=6971]21%[/MENTION] - For me, being called "average" is nearly the same as being called a "failure". If I'm not outstanding, notable or above average in what I'm doing, then I've failed. I haven't done well enough.
I agree with this. I feel horrible when I'm "average", and in some ways I actually feel that either extreme is better than being average. Not only is average not living up to my standards, but it's ordinary and boring as well.
You can't seperate being called weird and being called an idiot? I was a bit shocked when I read this. It's definitely something worth looking into and I'm sure it'd help in sorting out your Enneagram.
Before I go on giving my definitions, would you mind elaborating on what you said above?
What makes those two words synonymous for you?
Being weird makes you feel like an idiot?
Well, generally when I do something weird, it's also dumb. Like when I say something that makes no sense or I dress oddly (by accident), so I'm referring to mistakes that make me look weird or stupid. Or if I start a thread and nobody responds, I'll think it's because people thought it was weird or stupid.
I don't know, I guess I'm mainly self-conscious about doing or saying stupid things rather than just weird. Being a recluse probably makes me weird, I guess, but I wouldn't mind if people considered me weird for that. Maybe I just have a weird definition of weird?
Do you honestly think that's a weird point of view? Can you relate to it at all?
I can relate to wanting to be unique, but I'm generally too self-conscious to feel good about being weird. I do kind of like being an asexual atheist loner because it increases my uniqueness, but I wouldn't be able to wear odd clothing because I would feel too self-conscious. I want my appearance to be "normal", and I want to sound normal as well, but I like having unique and interesting ideas and opinions.