PinkisBlack
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Hello everyone. I'm a new user in this forum, and my main reason as to why I joined this forum is to seek help and knowledge.
I have taken the free tests a lot of times and have been typed differently. It was because I am confused about my own self or you could probably say I have low self awareness.
So first, let me talk about some background
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I took a test that my friend told me about, and during that time, I just got out of a very depressing and emotionally abusive situation. I tested INFP, Then, the more I recovered from depression, the more I thought that INFP doesn't really sound like me. It sounded like someone that I'll probably be annoyed of. Then I took the tests again and got ENTP. I was pretty convinced except for the part that says ENTPs are quick at coming up with new random ideas. That didn't sound like something I could do. Maybe I can be random at times when I want to just have fun, but most of the time I would rather want to stay on the topic being discussed.
Then now, I currently test different. I am not gonna tell you what it is so you can think about my information without referring it to a possible bias.
I know about the cognitive functions and how they work, but the problem is, I don't know which me was the real me. I am looking for current explanations as to why I would be changing the way I view things. Could it be something that was affected by my own experiences? I am a fairly kind and generous person. Since I was a kid, I have ALWAYS tried to be nice, when the truth is I didn't really care. But I thought that if I want people to treat me nicely, then I should do the same. I tried to do that all the time. I didn't want to be seen as a bad person, because then everyone would hate me, and I would feel humiliated knowing no ones on my side. But now, I am more honest and I admit it when I don't really care about something, but still wish them best.
These are some points about me:
-I am very image conscious (thus, why I was so shy)
-I procrastinate a lot, but I like to have things decided, so I'll know what will happen.
-Things I do has to have a purpose. I'd feel stupid if I did things without any reason. Except when I considered or decided that I'm gonna be random or say "I just wanted to"
-I have bad body coordination but I like physical stuffs
-I can be forgetful and misplace things
-I am usually daydreaming when I have nothing to do
-I am sympathetic when it comes to emotional issues, because I know how it feels like to be in a really dark mindset. But I am not good at being emotionally supportive or comforting. I tend to become uncomfortable. However, I can talk better in text messages.
-I believe that too much freedom can be dangerous because things will get too chaotic
-I hate it when people are late. And I never understood why punctuality and deadlines are not important for some people
-I have a hard time remembering facts. Sometimes I end up just putting in my own view or explanation (of course I have to tell everyone that I am not speaking in behalf of facts)
-As a kid, I always play with the boys I was never girly, and I have been called tomboy. It didn't bother me that much. But when more and more people started asking me, I become somewhat offended (being called a tomboy in that country was considered a bad thing for a girl). This has become my weakness as well (being called a tomboy)
-I hate repetitions and people that always do the same thing over and over again, thinking that they are great and smart for believing that what has worked before will work again. The world doesn't always stay the same..
-I like rules and traditions ONLY if they actually make sense.
-I get motivated a lot when I do something right and beat someone like in a competition.
-I hate being seen as a loser, or someone who is down at the bottom. It is WORST to be seen this way.
-I believe everyone has different values and I should respect the fact that they have other values that may not be the same as mine. But that doesn't mean I agree and respect what their value is specifically about.
-I HATE being nostalgic. It is something that hurts me and mentally paralyze me. It also gives me a "boring" feeling.
-Even though I thought I was an introvert, I'm pretty sure now that I'm an extrovert.
-I'm a pretty nice person. But sometimes, I just can't "care" about something that doesn't seem to be worthy of respect.
-I believe emotions are essential part of our lives as humans, but only if it is relevant to what is happening or there is a valid reason to feel the certain emotion.
-I am really bad at art and math. I prefer classes that make me do presentation and let me talk about my opinion. Math looks too troublesome and detailed for me and I tend to get bored and confused because I really don't care much about it. But it is interesting. I'm bad at art and sometimes don't understand how other people understand it, but I enjoy music. I especially like talented people who are good at singing, dancing, and drawing simply because they look cool and I can't do what they're doing.
One extra thing about me:
I have been too emotional for a specific period of time, and emotionally expressive to someone, someone that I love and trust the most. That person doesn't know that tho. But now, when I try to remember everything I did and said, I cringe... I'm embarrassed. I regret everything that I've said. I wish I could go back and erase it, but I obviously can't do that lol
Because of this, I think I'm confused between thinking and feeling as well.
I have taken the free tests a lot of times and have been typed differently. It was because I am confused about my own self or you could probably say I have low self awareness.
So first, let me talk about some background
[INFO DELETED]
I took a test that my friend told me about, and during that time, I just got out of a very depressing and emotionally abusive situation. I tested INFP, Then, the more I recovered from depression, the more I thought that INFP doesn't really sound like me. It sounded like someone that I'll probably be annoyed of. Then I took the tests again and got ENTP. I was pretty convinced except for the part that says ENTPs are quick at coming up with new random ideas. That didn't sound like something I could do. Maybe I can be random at times when I want to just have fun, but most of the time I would rather want to stay on the topic being discussed.
Then now, I currently test different. I am not gonna tell you what it is so you can think about my information without referring it to a possible bias.
I know about the cognitive functions and how they work, but the problem is, I don't know which me was the real me. I am looking for current explanations as to why I would be changing the way I view things. Could it be something that was affected by my own experiences? I am a fairly kind and generous person. Since I was a kid, I have ALWAYS tried to be nice, when the truth is I didn't really care. But I thought that if I want people to treat me nicely, then I should do the same. I tried to do that all the time. I didn't want to be seen as a bad person, because then everyone would hate me, and I would feel humiliated knowing no ones on my side. But now, I am more honest and I admit it when I don't really care about something, but still wish them best.
These are some points about me:
-I am very image conscious (thus, why I was so shy)
-I procrastinate a lot, but I like to have things decided, so I'll know what will happen.
-Things I do has to have a purpose. I'd feel stupid if I did things without any reason. Except when I considered or decided that I'm gonna be random or say "I just wanted to"
-I have bad body coordination but I like physical stuffs
-I can be forgetful and misplace things
-I am usually daydreaming when I have nothing to do
-I am sympathetic when it comes to emotional issues, because I know how it feels like to be in a really dark mindset. But I am not good at being emotionally supportive or comforting. I tend to become uncomfortable. However, I can talk better in text messages.
-I believe that too much freedom can be dangerous because things will get too chaotic
-I hate it when people are late. And I never understood why punctuality and deadlines are not important for some people
-I have a hard time remembering facts. Sometimes I end up just putting in my own view or explanation (of course I have to tell everyone that I am not speaking in behalf of facts)
-As a kid, I always play with the boys I was never girly, and I have been called tomboy. It didn't bother me that much. But when more and more people started asking me, I become somewhat offended (being called a tomboy in that country was considered a bad thing for a girl). This has become my weakness as well (being called a tomboy)
-I hate repetitions and people that always do the same thing over and over again, thinking that they are great and smart for believing that what has worked before will work again. The world doesn't always stay the same..
-I like rules and traditions ONLY if they actually make sense.
-I get motivated a lot when I do something right and beat someone like in a competition.
-I hate being seen as a loser, or someone who is down at the bottom. It is WORST to be seen this way.
-I believe everyone has different values and I should respect the fact that they have other values that may not be the same as mine. But that doesn't mean I agree and respect what their value is specifically about.
-I HATE being nostalgic. It is something that hurts me and mentally paralyze me. It also gives me a "boring" feeling.
-Even though I thought I was an introvert, I'm pretty sure now that I'm an extrovert.
-I'm a pretty nice person. But sometimes, I just can't "care" about something that doesn't seem to be worthy of respect.
-I believe emotions are essential part of our lives as humans, but only if it is relevant to what is happening or there is a valid reason to feel the certain emotion.
-I am really bad at art and math. I prefer classes that make me do presentation and let me talk about my opinion. Math looks too troublesome and detailed for me and I tend to get bored and confused because I really don't care much about it. But it is interesting. I'm bad at art and sometimes don't understand how other people understand it, but I enjoy music. I especially like talented people who are good at singing, dancing, and drawing simply because they look cool and I can't do what they're doing.
One extra thing about me:
I have been too emotional for a specific period of time, and emotionally expressive to someone, someone that I love and trust the most. That person doesn't know that tho. But now, when I try to remember everything I did and said, I cringe... I'm embarrassed. I regret everything that I've said. I wish I could go back and erase it, but I obviously can't do that lol
Because of this, I think I'm confused between thinking and feeling as well.
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