(guilt, aggressiveness; popularity, other people)

[Verfremdungseffekt]

I have this real problem that people are going to put guilt onto me. I have trouble asking even for things to which I'm perfectly entitled, lest I get a difficult response, or a sense of disappointment in me, to which my Pavlovian response is to wilt away and say, okayokay, never mind. I'll figure it out somehow. Sorry, sorry. And then I'll shrink into myself and be a bit mad for a while.

Not very popular on the Internet. Actively annoy and anger people. One guy in particular -- ruins my day whenever I see him post, even when it's not directed at me. He's such a horrible person, and it rubs off.

I'm very thin-skinned. I just have trouble coping with or understanding this behavior.