Did you need a third party to intervene on your own enneagram type, to point out your underlying motivation?
Nah I never fully submitted to the idea of being a five enneagram, because I couldn't truly seem to fit the profile. But at the time I definately didn't think I was 9 either. Due to learning myself a bit better, not just what I do because that was never in question, but also why I do them, has helped me to understand I'm definately a nine. The thing is, I was always a but high-strung on the absolution of my Ti framework. That I only did things because I thought they needed to be done. Kinda completely ignoring the unconscious part that makes up our enneagram. Learning more about my true unconscious self has opened quite some new doors.
It's funny how you can truely think a certain something about yourself then later learn that you were completely wrong. But such is the unconscious.
So pretty much the underlying problem with your inferior Fe was the confidence in your own abilities? Sensitivity would be triggered if you where criticised on your own ability and actions, yeah? "I can now be my true self without inhibitions anywhere I go. " Alas, freeeeddooooom! That is great.
I feel at ease mostly with this. What I don't feel competent is in me presenting myself logically and objectively. As well as my ability to NOT procrastinate and get things done. Know of any good inferior Te reads?
I think more broadly, the underlying problem was that I didn't know how to fit in or who to be. As a result I has little confidence in myself. So in a way yes, it was also triggered by criticism on my ability and actions. Because being told you are different without you really understanding what that means does that to a person. Now I have my place in the world, the confidence kinda followed automatically.
You know, procrastination for me I don't see as a bad thing. I still do the things that absolutely must be done ofcourse. The rest of my time I fill up with my own self interests whatever they may be. It helps me relax and wind down. I know that if I would stop procrastinating. I would go completely ballistic, stresslevel wise. That is something I see as much more harmful then my current levels of procrastination. xP
Yeah as for showing yourself logically and objectively, it's I suppose also a worry for me. There are many pitfalls such as interpretation as well as the ability of the listener to understand you that it can still be a bit of a hurdle for me at times. But mostly that only happens with people I don't know. So I don't really know how I should convey my thoughts to them. I just to it to the best of my ability now and if they don't understand (or I them) I'll make it a discussion and see if an understanding can be reached.
However, especially in work environments, my e-9 starts to flare up and I tend to avoid such discussions. Better to keep the customer on my good side than risking a difference of opinion that could harm that relationship. So it's more because of professionalism towards customers.
I would never do that to anyone close to me or important to me.