Red Memories
Haunted Echoes
- Joined
- Jun 3, 2017
- Messages
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- MBTI Type
- ESFP
- Enneagram
- 215
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
So, when I was a teenager, I mostly got ESFJ-ENFJ on my MBTI results. Now, I have been consistently receiving ISTJ-INTJ (I know the S-N is odd but I always seem to be very borderline S or N, though I feel I am probably an S.)
So I will try to give you a sort of basis of how I am with things, and see if you can help me decide where I belong in the scope of things. Feel free to ask me questions.
People:
When I was younger, I did not have a lot of social experience so I was lonely, so when I saw people I got very excited and in their face. As I have had the ability to actually socialize, I have found solitude more comforting. If you come talk to me, I will talk to you, but it will be small talk. Unless you get me on a day I am really stressed out, then I might freak you out by telling you my life history.
If you tell me an emotional problem, I will have two instincts.
If I acknowledge you are completely irrational, I will say I am sorry and hope you feel better. I may give you a hug.
If it is a problem I see a fix to, I will offer you advice.
If you find an excuse to not take my advice, I will get extremely frustrated with you.
If you ignore my advice, I will get frustrated as well.
This frustration will make me want to punch you in the face. Per say, I prefer when people do what I suggest they do.
I have low self-esteem, but have a superiority complex still. that sounds weird but the reality is my mind is "I suck, but I suck less than you do."
I don't really accept advice from people unless we are close or you have higher education credentials than me.
When I hang out with people, I feel a need to be alone for a while. Especially if the interaction was emotionally charged.
I get very upset if people are rude to me or generally show a dislike for me, or ignore my existence.
I like it when people trust me with their problems, emotions, and darker side. I do not like shallow relationships or a lot of small talk. I mean, I can small talk but don't expect us to be best friends if that is ALL we ever do.
I often get remarks that I appear unpassionate about things unless I am interested in them. If you tell me about a video game I have never played, I might switch the topic rather than listen to you. I know it is rude and I am working on it, but it comes kinda naturally to me. I don't connect with your interests unless I share an interest.
Daily Life:
The first thing you should know about me right now is I live in chaotic organization. That means everything is everywhere but I know exactly where it is. I have every outline in my head, I just don't tend to physically write it down. I am the most disorganized organized person you will ever meet.
As a teen, there was a time I made a schedule for what I ate on what days for lunch. and I stuck to that schedule, without getting sick of the same foods. you heard that correctly. I am a bit of a control freak. I like things done my way, or the way I was taught to be that way. I have a system for the things that I do, and I do not change it up usually, unless someone else does the thing I normally do, then I improvise.
Improvise IS NOT something that comes naturally to me. I like systems, rules, and expectations. I like predictability. I like organization. I dislike change. I cannot stand if I have been doing something the same way for months and suddenly someone suggests some new way to do it when the original way works JUST FINE.
I prefer to live in my own world, and allow a minimal amount of people into my world. If I let someone into my world and they betray me, I become very bitter and hurt, and I never forget the incident. 3 years later I will cry over this... (looking at that person mentally.)
I have things I have to do every day and I keep that routine. If you give me another priority outside of it and I do not take note that this will be added to my list of priorities, I will...forget to do it... and then be very upset with myself for forgetting to do my task. I take my responsibilities seriously.
I actually like learning. Homework isn't as boring to me as it may be for some people. I like reading fictional books that make you think about life and the way you live, rather than merely for entertainment. I struggle to enjoy books that are solely entertaining. I want a book to rip me up and make me see life differently when I look outside.
I am a worst case scenario maker. For instance, I mentioned my stage fright comes from an image of someone will probably boo me, tell me to shut up, or literally toss tomatoes at me. So I prefer to perform without an audience.
I do have diagnosed depression and anxiety. I don't know if this affects my results at all but it may.
I love music. I really get into trying to find deeper meanings and analysis of song lyrics. I also write a lot in my free time. lyrics and stories alike. However, I rarely finish my stories. My artistic projects always seem a bit half finished, and I always feel stressed I am not finishing them but I never finish them. that seems completely illogical...
I don't know how much this will say, but in high school my better subjects were math related. I was very good with algebra, consumer math, and accounting. I could do subjects like English well but it took a lot more effort, and I struggled with poetry because it expected me to read between the lines.
I often think about the future, and often freak myself out thinking about the future. I also often live in the past. I think it is rare I am actually in the present.
Again, I lack self-confidence, so I doubt my abilities often although I do have talents I am sure. I just don't see myself as spectacular.
I think I tend to talk too much, or at least, talk about myself and my own interests too much.
I am very indecisive. It isn't I cannot think of things to do, it is I cannot think of things to do without second guessing the things we could do which ultimately makes me say "what do you prefer" although it doesn't always make me happy to sacrifice my control of the situation.
Some would identify me as a control freak. particularly my mother. XD and myself...
I prefer to control situations, and usually the best way to do that is be by myself where I can control the situation regardless.
I tend to insert logic where people are having heated discussions and ultimately piss people off, get stressed out by the drama and react in an angry manner and we all start a flame war... XD
I tend to be impulsive if my emotions are high.
I have trouble coping with very strong emotions.
I tend to get emotional easily.
I prefer to have facts and real hard evidence when it comes to things. However, I am extremely loyal to those I care for, so even if they are in the wrong, I will probably defend them. except the rare occasion where there is no denying they did something wrong in the scenario, then I will send them a mom-like lecture on being a mature person and not being an idiot.
will probably add some of the questionaire answers below...
So I will try to give you a sort of basis of how I am with things, and see if you can help me decide where I belong in the scope of things. Feel free to ask me questions.
People:
When I was younger, I did not have a lot of social experience so I was lonely, so when I saw people I got very excited and in their face. As I have had the ability to actually socialize, I have found solitude more comforting. If you come talk to me, I will talk to you, but it will be small talk. Unless you get me on a day I am really stressed out, then I might freak you out by telling you my life history.
If you tell me an emotional problem, I will have two instincts.
If I acknowledge you are completely irrational, I will say I am sorry and hope you feel better. I may give you a hug.
If it is a problem I see a fix to, I will offer you advice.
If you find an excuse to not take my advice, I will get extremely frustrated with you.
If you ignore my advice, I will get frustrated as well.
This frustration will make me want to punch you in the face. Per say, I prefer when people do what I suggest they do.
I have low self-esteem, but have a superiority complex still. that sounds weird but the reality is my mind is "I suck, but I suck less than you do."
I don't really accept advice from people unless we are close or you have higher education credentials than me.
When I hang out with people, I feel a need to be alone for a while. Especially if the interaction was emotionally charged.
I get very upset if people are rude to me or generally show a dislike for me, or ignore my existence.
I like it when people trust me with their problems, emotions, and darker side. I do not like shallow relationships or a lot of small talk. I mean, I can small talk but don't expect us to be best friends if that is ALL we ever do.
I often get remarks that I appear unpassionate about things unless I am interested in them. If you tell me about a video game I have never played, I might switch the topic rather than listen to you. I know it is rude and I am working on it, but it comes kinda naturally to me. I don't connect with your interests unless I share an interest.
Daily Life:
The first thing you should know about me right now is I live in chaotic organization. That means everything is everywhere but I know exactly where it is. I have every outline in my head, I just don't tend to physically write it down. I am the most disorganized organized person you will ever meet.
As a teen, there was a time I made a schedule for what I ate on what days for lunch. and I stuck to that schedule, without getting sick of the same foods. you heard that correctly. I am a bit of a control freak. I like things done my way, or the way I was taught to be that way. I have a system for the things that I do, and I do not change it up usually, unless someone else does the thing I normally do, then I improvise.
Improvise IS NOT something that comes naturally to me. I like systems, rules, and expectations. I like predictability. I like organization. I dislike change. I cannot stand if I have been doing something the same way for months and suddenly someone suggests some new way to do it when the original way works JUST FINE.
I prefer to live in my own world, and allow a minimal amount of people into my world. If I let someone into my world and they betray me, I become very bitter and hurt, and I never forget the incident. 3 years later I will cry over this... (looking at that person mentally.)
I have things I have to do every day and I keep that routine. If you give me another priority outside of it and I do not take note that this will be added to my list of priorities, I will...forget to do it... and then be very upset with myself for forgetting to do my task. I take my responsibilities seriously.
I actually like learning. Homework isn't as boring to me as it may be for some people. I like reading fictional books that make you think about life and the way you live, rather than merely for entertainment. I struggle to enjoy books that are solely entertaining. I want a book to rip me up and make me see life differently when I look outside.
I am a worst case scenario maker. For instance, I mentioned my stage fright comes from an image of someone will probably boo me, tell me to shut up, or literally toss tomatoes at me. So I prefer to perform without an audience.
I do have diagnosed depression and anxiety. I don't know if this affects my results at all but it may.
I love music. I really get into trying to find deeper meanings and analysis of song lyrics. I also write a lot in my free time. lyrics and stories alike. However, I rarely finish my stories. My artistic projects always seem a bit half finished, and I always feel stressed I am not finishing them but I never finish them. that seems completely illogical...
I don't know how much this will say, but in high school my better subjects were math related. I was very good with algebra, consumer math, and accounting. I could do subjects like English well but it took a lot more effort, and I struggled with poetry because it expected me to read between the lines.
I often think about the future, and often freak myself out thinking about the future. I also often live in the past. I think it is rare I am actually in the present.
Again, I lack self-confidence, so I doubt my abilities often although I do have talents I am sure. I just don't see myself as spectacular.
I think I tend to talk too much, or at least, talk about myself and my own interests too much.
I am very indecisive. It isn't I cannot think of things to do, it is I cannot think of things to do without second guessing the things we could do which ultimately makes me say "what do you prefer" although it doesn't always make me happy to sacrifice my control of the situation.
Some would identify me as a control freak. particularly my mother. XD and myself...
I prefer to control situations, and usually the best way to do that is be by myself where I can control the situation regardless.
I tend to insert logic where people are having heated discussions and ultimately piss people off, get stressed out by the drama and react in an angry manner and we all start a flame war... XD
I tend to be impulsive if my emotions are high.
I have trouble coping with very strong emotions.
I tend to get emotional easily.
I prefer to have facts and real hard evidence when it comes to things. However, I am extremely loyal to those I care for, so even if they are in the wrong, I will probably defend them. except the rare occasion where there is no denying they did something wrong in the scenario, then I will send them a mom-like lecture on being a mature person and not being an idiot.
will probably add some of the questionaire answers below...