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offers Blackmail! the cheese and Burgundy of his choice
you know how to use your Se!!!
and post it durentu!![]()
This is so mean. Even I couldn't describe sensory experiences.
Hats off to the N's that are doing so.. you're all quite poetic (I'm not)![]()
We are all sensors. The N/S divide is basically just a vanity for people on this board to give them a unique identity.
If a person is so disconnected from the world that they just can't feel the grass under their feet, then they may be suffering from PTSD or some other mental disfunction. That's how I see it, and I'm pretty 'N' based on test results, whatever that ultimately means...
very presumptuous of you to believe you know how others experience things.
i think for a lot of us it is something we have to consciously turn on....we are often preoccupied and do not notice certain details in our environment not because we are blind but because we're not focused on it.
very presumptuous of you to believe you know how others experience things.
i think for a lot of us it is something we have to consciously turn on....we are often preoccupied and do not notice certain details in our environment not because we are blind but because we're not focused on it.
I'll give an example from a Se dom perspective here....
I stood outside of the gas station in the sunlight, frozen cherry coke in one hand, cigarette in the other, bag slung over one shoulder and slightly cutting into the muscle- I could feel the heat of the day kicking in as the sweat glands across my back and arms became offended at the lack of breeze they had been accustomed to and prickled awake and a trickle of sweat already started to run down my back inbetween my shoulder blades. The air smelled like gasoline, diesel exhaust and the cloyingly sweet and overbearing smell of clover blooming in the lawn... it almost makes me choke, so I take a drag from my cigarette to cancel out the sweetness. I shut my eyes and lean against the wall, enjoying the smoke and the sweet cold of my frozen coke in contrast to the humid windless heat of the day. The ice truck driver walks by with a dolly loaded with ice and I can feel the ghost of the cool brush across me for a few seconds... cool and moist like a cave, but it disappears just as quickly, making the heat seem even more intense. I can feel my hair starting to stick to my face and push it back as I finish my cigarette, take my last sip of my drink and then head back to my bicycle.
see... not hard!
It was dark when I left the building. The stained glass windows of the church refracted the moonlight across the tops of pews, illuminating the church as I stood alone at the wooden double-doors. I paused. The silence was welcoming, peaceful, and held a strong draw for me despite the four hours that I'd spent there. Solitude is my only form of peace, and this abandoned church, a treasure hidden away in the suburbs of Sandringham, is my sanctuary. The doors creaked behind me as I closed them; the rusted hinges providing reassurance that my escape remains mine alone.
I am not particularly religious, I'd be the first to admit that. It's just that I like empty churches and cathedrals. The places that house spirituality, without the humans that soil it and their selfish agendas. The place that embodies ideas greater than the trivial physical world that we live in. The darkest corners with the deepest symbolism, lines and figures, pictures representating the unenunciable. The descriptions of what I feel inside me but cannot talk about. I often feel like I am simultaneously filling the physical space, and yet being filled. It is a paradox that would not make sense except for the fact that I feel less and less like a physical human and more like a transient spirit.
As I walked down the alleyway that led from the train station, gently inhaling the clear, chilly air, I come back more to myself and what she said. "Until you admit that you have emotional needs and are a member of the human race, I cannot be with you anymore." I'd laughed at that, an amused, bitter laugh - not because I'd disagreed, but because of the irony of the situation and the truth in that statement. It's started raining. I pulled out my black umbrella, mechanically setting it open and continuing my walk at a regular cadence. The sound of my heels as they hit the ground in a regular, hollow, squeak mixing with the dull thuds of the raindrops on the fabric of the umbrella. Like a double bass complementing the impossibly fast fingerstrokes in a Rachmaninoff concerto. I am blending into my surroundings, at one with the world. This feeling is incredibly individual, yet the knowledge that it is irreproducible in life, destined to melt into another moment of experience, renders it almost meaningless. It will be forgotten in the next moment when I am distracted by more pressing material needs.
stealing the idea from Satine here, though I've thought that it would be a good idea for a while...
A lot of the intuitives here talk about how detached from the world around them they are... how they don't really notice the way that the grass feels in their toes, the way that the wind feels in their hair... how delicious the neighbor's barbecue smells![]()