i've been trying to figure this out for literally months.
4 with a strong 5 wing? 5 with a strong 4 wing? 4 with a 3 wing? what? mr. enneagram?
i'm very creative. i enjoy playing electric guitar and listening to music, and i write and draw a ton. doing all these things often stresses me out, because i'm always thinking about how good i want to be at whatever i'm doing, or how unlikely it is that i will ever make anything as great as the stuff i myself like. i always wish i could enjoy the process more, and just be. i often compare myself to my favorite artists and singers, or whoever my creative role model is. i look for as many connections as i can find so that i'll feel more like them and therefore more capable of achieving what they've achieved. whatever my interest is at the moment, i'll study it very intensely until i'm bored of it or until i know enough that i am satisfied. (like, for example, i will spend an hour trying to figure out the exact note played in a certain part of a song-just one note. or i'll spend months trying to figure out my damn enneagram type.) i'm usually very sarcastic, and really introverted, but only because most people bore me, and seem very superficial. if i find someone who interests me, and they don't annoy me or i don't get a bad vibe from them, i'll gladly talk to them about whatever interests we have in common. i always been very curious and asked tons of questions, and i've never been afraid to do so. i like talking about how i feel, but only with someone i trust, like my best friend or my therapist. i have left friendships because people expected too much of me or got too clingy. my room is my sanctuary and i just wish people would stop expecting things from me, god knows i expect nothing from them. i have been very depressed before and can be really emotional- i tend to harp on my worries and emotions, but more recently i've been detatching from them, becoming tired of being sad and choosing to just stop thinking about it, and everything else that gives me feeling, which is tough, because i connect and compare myself to a lot of things. (when im in this state i think "ok, i just wont try anymore. i wont feel and ill stop following my passions and then ill stop being dissapointed." but then it passes and i feel normal and inspired again) i used to be shamelessly clingy with my close friends, or desperate with someone i had a crush on, but through experience (and other people doing it to ME) ive learnt that this pushes people away and unnattractive, and have become pretty good at turning it off. people see me as aloof and individualistic, and i hope, smart. i have been told that im incredibly self aware, and i know that im very self absorbed. (im not at all ashamed of it though, though other people think i should be. i mean, im not SELFISH or inconsiderate. i just think everyone should watch out for themselves. just read the fountainhead.)
i didn't really know what to write about myself here; i was just eye balling it after reading some other "type me" threads. i think i wrote too much but again i had no idea what to say, so i said everything i could think of...haha. let me know if you need to know anything else! i really really really appreciate it.
(if you pick up on any instictual types feel free to let me know- i think i definitely have some self preservation instict in me)
thank yoooou.
4 with a strong 5 wing? 5 with a strong 4 wing? 4 with a 3 wing? what? mr. enneagram?
i'm very creative. i enjoy playing electric guitar and listening to music, and i write and draw a ton. doing all these things often stresses me out, because i'm always thinking about how good i want to be at whatever i'm doing, or how unlikely it is that i will ever make anything as great as the stuff i myself like. i always wish i could enjoy the process more, and just be. i often compare myself to my favorite artists and singers, or whoever my creative role model is. i look for as many connections as i can find so that i'll feel more like them and therefore more capable of achieving what they've achieved. whatever my interest is at the moment, i'll study it very intensely until i'm bored of it or until i know enough that i am satisfied. (like, for example, i will spend an hour trying to figure out the exact note played in a certain part of a song-just one note. or i'll spend months trying to figure out my damn enneagram type.) i'm usually very sarcastic, and really introverted, but only because most people bore me, and seem very superficial. if i find someone who interests me, and they don't annoy me or i don't get a bad vibe from them, i'll gladly talk to them about whatever interests we have in common. i always been very curious and asked tons of questions, and i've never been afraid to do so. i like talking about how i feel, but only with someone i trust, like my best friend or my therapist. i have left friendships because people expected too much of me or got too clingy. my room is my sanctuary and i just wish people would stop expecting things from me, god knows i expect nothing from them. i have been very depressed before and can be really emotional- i tend to harp on my worries and emotions, but more recently i've been detatching from them, becoming tired of being sad and choosing to just stop thinking about it, and everything else that gives me feeling, which is tough, because i connect and compare myself to a lot of things. (when im in this state i think "ok, i just wont try anymore. i wont feel and ill stop following my passions and then ill stop being dissapointed." but then it passes and i feel normal and inspired again) i used to be shamelessly clingy with my close friends, or desperate with someone i had a crush on, but through experience (and other people doing it to ME) ive learnt that this pushes people away and unnattractive, and have become pretty good at turning it off. people see me as aloof and individualistic, and i hope, smart. i have been told that im incredibly self aware, and i know that im very self absorbed. (im not at all ashamed of it though, though other people think i should be. i mean, im not SELFISH or inconsiderate. i just think everyone should watch out for themselves. just read the fountainhead.)
i didn't really know what to write about myself here; i was just eye balling it after reading some other "type me" threads. i think i wrote too much but again i had no idea what to say, so i said everything i could think of...haha. let me know if you need to know anything else! i really really really appreciate it.
(if you pick up on any instictual types feel free to let me know- i think i definitely have some self preservation instict in me)
thank yoooou.