Sforza
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- Joined
- Jun 7, 2018
- Messages
- 9
- MBTI Type
- INTP
- Enneagram
- 3w4
I'm writing this as I'm waiting for my delicious cappuccino to be delivered to me, having one simple task at hand for the Typology Central think tank that I always was so impressed by, would you be so kind and read few paragraphs of mine and shed some light on what enneagram/tritype fits me best.
I have an idealized vision of myself that I constantly strive to match, this vision is an amalgam of behaviors I admire in my role models. This self-ideal is constantly readjusted as I get older and precise my understanding of life. My ideal self is built of two main components, the first is what attributes I find impressive and therefore what I want others to see me as; the second is whether those attributes are aligned with who I genuinely am. So, therefore if I think that the attribute of willpower is one that is in sync with my core framework of traits, and if I find willpower to be an impressive trait, both outwardly and inwardly, I'll constantly strive to nurture it.
I don't think I have an arch fear but I can tally them up in an unholy trio. I dislike being mocked, when someone undermines me, I usually take few moments to collect myself to strategize in order to gain back control over the encounter, or at least find a dignified exit.
I noticed that whenever I seek a partner I intuitively look for someone that I'm certain is going to fall for me first, this helps me to avoid being emotionally wounded. It's a sort of a god-mode in a relationship where your partner admirers you for what you are to them. Loss of authority = emotional damage.
I tend to avoid pain in all quarters, I've always been overly indulgent and the only thing that throttles this is when my behavior starts tarnishing the image I'm striving for, or when I can see it'll cost me emotional pain/discomfort in the future.
When I go into stress I tend to internalize and blank to others, but rarely seek help or show that I'm strained. I hate having to suspend or postpone decisions when I'm like this, I like being set on whatever agreements or subscriptions in advance, so that my present actions will correspond to that future. So when I'm stressed I make rash, cold decisions to avoid being tortured by uncertainty and regain my peace of mind.
My default response to fear is to block out what's causing it, I rarely confront my fears, I just come up with strategies to block out their sources.
Whenever I'm angered I tend to show it with my body gestures and facial expression while doing my best to remain in control. My anger bleeds gradually until I explode (which is v. rare) or exit the situation and slowly calm myself.
I rarely feel ashamed but when I do I tend to exit the stage as fast I can, so I can come up with a way of regaining my face.
I tend to get irritated by seemingly odd things, I was having my evening snack in my bed recently and my partner left a can of wet cat food open right beside me, annoyed I told her that she's inconsiderate making me smell wet cat food precisely when I wanted to take a breather, relax and enjoy my favorite snack. Sometimes when I get irritated I don't even attempt to voice my issue, I just internalize and make it clear that I don't want to interact with the person who annoyed me until they show initiative to redeem themselves in my eyes.
I have an idealized vision of myself that I constantly strive to match, this vision is an amalgam of behaviors I admire in my role models. This self-ideal is constantly readjusted as I get older and precise my understanding of life. My ideal self is built of two main components, the first is what attributes I find impressive and therefore what I want others to see me as; the second is whether those attributes are aligned with who I genuinely am. So, therefore if I think that the attribute of willpower is one that is in sync with my core framework of traits, and if I find willpower to be an impressive trait, both outwardly and inwardly, I'll constantly strive to nurture it.
I don't think I have an arch fear but I can tally them up in an unholy trio. I dislike being mocked, when someone undermines me, I usually take few moments to collect myself to strategize in order to gain back control over the encounter, or at least find a dignified exit.
I noticed that whenever I seek a partner I intuitively look for someone that I'm certain is going to fall for me first, this helps me to avoid being emotionally wounded. It's a sort of a god-mode in a relationship where your partner admirers you for what you are to them. Loss of authority = emotional damage.
I tend to avoid pain in all quarters, I've always been overly indulgent and the only thing that throttles this is when my behavior starts tarnishing the image I'm striving for, or when I can see it'll cost me emotional pain/discomfort in the future.
When I go into stress I tend to internalize and blank to others, but rarely seek help or show that I'm strained. I hate having to suspend or postpone decisions when I'm like this, I like being set on whatever agreements or subscriptions in advance, so that my present actions will correspond to that future. So when I'm stressed I make rash, cold decisions to avoid being tortured by uncertainty and regain my peace of mind.
My default response to fear is to block out what's causing it, I rarely confront my fears, I just come up with strategies to block out their sources.
Whenever I'm angered I tend to show it with my body gestures and facial expression while doing my best to remain in control. My anger bleeds gradually until I explode (which is v. rare) or exit the situation and slowly calm myself.
I rarely feel ashamed but when I do I tend to exit the stage as fast I can, so I can come up with a way of regaining my face.
I tend to get irritated by seemingly odd things, I was having my evening snack in my bed recently and my partner left a can of wet cat food open right beside me, annoyed I told her that she's inconsiderate making me smell wet cat food precisely when I wanted to take a breather, relax and enjoy my favorite snack. Sometimes when I get irritated I don't even attempt to voice my issue, I just internalize and make it clear that I don't want to interact with the person who annoyed me until they show initiative to redeem themselves in my eyes.