You said you play the harp?
Would you say it is a passion of yours? I agree with [MENTION=10757]Nicodemus[/MENTION] you have to create your own reason from some form of passion.
I've had/have similar thoughts and continue to bounce in and out of them, so perhaps I am not the best person to give advice on the matter. But perhaps you could make that harp your passion, music communicates intuitively with the mind of others and doesn't demand conventional explanation; people can only rationalise as best they can, after the fact. Like everything really.
You wouldn't have to do this for others either, it can be for yourself, not so much that misery loves company as expression of what you value. I think people tend to get caught up in meaning from a human perspective, which is of course impossible to escape for us and we are inherently biased.
But I think we can grasp the tail end of meaning from which the apparent universe derives. It doesn't require a set standard of logic, the earth and by extension ourselves, are all here by a conglomeration of variables that just happened to come together for the right conditions of what we call 'life'.
I do think there is meaning in life, I just don't think it is a human one, nor do I see it as one belonging to a beneficent deity or conscious force. It doesn't judge, or command, or ask, or give and we cannot bully it, or be bullied by it...it just is; much like ourselves. I know this sounds suspiciously like giving up on trying to search for truth in the matter, but it's more of an acceptance that we can change our format and approach to this line of questioning, which doesn't mean that we stop seeking, only that we change the nature of how we seek. Of course this does bring into question the nature of morality which is to me, a more difficult topic.
But in either case emotions are part of the issue. Even when we consider ourselves a font of reason who do not react or feel emotions strongly, they are still there as part of our evolution. Emotions always come before the rationalisation of them and they are definitely triggered by certain stimulus, which we then intellectualise into complex and interwoven explanations. In some ways this is actually an almost in-built belief system, we believe that what causes these emotional reactions are to blame and because of this, they are.
More importantly though, life is just our experience, from birth to death. You can check out early if you want, or stick it out to the end, but it's still your decision.
The meaning is in what you choose to make of it.
Or...yknow, determinism. Whatevs!