hommefatal
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- Apr 11, 2009
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It's really difficult to me to talk to people I like in real life. I always seem to idealise or demonise people. If I idealise them I fear saying something stupid/wrong towards them which leads to me saying nothing. If I demonise them I try to become their opposite which leads to me saying nothing as well.
If I am in love and they like me I take advantage of them and lose interest quickly.
If I am in love and they dislike me I am taken advantage of and am not able to abandon as long as they don't start acting like a total prick (because then I could demonise them).
If I'm sure they don't really like me I am afraid of them and my heart beats heavily.
I always run away from people I have opened up to except if they are like my slaves. I fear they could start a conspiracy. To be honest, there have been enough 'conspiracies' against me. Now the question is "How do you define conspiracy?". To me it's a conspiracy when people talk things about me behind my back and I don't know about it.
If I am in love and they like me I take advantage of them and lose interest quickly.
If I am in love and they dislike me I am taken advantage of and am not able to abandon as long as they don't start acting like a total prick (because then I could demonise them).
If I'm sure they don't really like me I am afraid of them and my heart beats heavily.
I always run away from people I have opened up to except if they are like my slaves. I fear they could start a conspiracy. To be honest, there have been enough 'conspiracies' against me. Now the question is "How do you define conspiracy?". To me it's a conspiracy when people talk things about me behind my back and I don't know about it.