Hecuba
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- Oct 13, 2012
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- ISFJ
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I can't count the time I nearly lost friends due to my pushy, if not jealous (though I am trying to get rid of the latter part) -- I don't know why but I'd go into overprotective mode and I'd want to guard someone against someone who is a love-interest of a friend (if that sounds weird). I always ask too many personal questions, I am like an interrogation officer. This has happened with THREE friends so far. The kicker is only once was I actually romantically attracted to the friend at hand. This was about three years ago, give or take a few months. But I just want to not see my friends get heartbroken (that one friend did, and bad) so recently I have done the same damn thing to another friend. I want my friends to be happy and to be successful but at the same time I am so jealously overprotective and I find anyone who is an "outsider" a threat. I always worry about every single possibility that could happen to them-- and it's always a bad scenario I am imagining. I was described by a thorn in the side by a good friend, yes I can be a thorn but I am a loyal one. I don't think I am a hateful person, hate is a strong, strong word. Maybe I am just always in overprotective mode and I don't just let things go with the flow, and leave things to fate. I have had one of the hardest weeks ever, and it was my fault for having a big mouth! I go from 0 to 60 to freak-out mode and this friend did not need that as he had a hard time recently as well. We hadn't talked in a few days and it's really, really hard. I know what I did wrong, and why I never got rid of that old habit of developing a loathing against someone I perceived as a threat -- the mind is a powerful weapon and it scares me how much I can conjure an idea of someone and a bad one. I wish I would never do this again, and that amends can be made. I have got rid of all the negative feelings weighing on my heart, as I know it is bad spiritually, physically and psychologically. I am not a bad person, though. I am someone with a very grave fault that I want to change..
Okay is it just me or do other ISFJs suffer with this as well?
Okay is it just me or do other ISFJs suffer with this as well?