PerpetuallyScreaming
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- sp/sx
I apologize, I can't find the introduction thread and I do not know if I am breaking any rules by posting here first.
Anyway.
I've been interested in MBTI/Myers Briggs since I was around 12 years old. So a long time. As I've gotten older and am beginning to become a young adult, I keep doubting what I understand about myself. Especially since people tell me differently. I almost feel like going through being a teenager and only listening to other people and what they state about me has led me to not have a true understanding of myself, even when I search and search and have spent just as many years trying to understand who I am and what the implications of that are.
I feel kind of stupid and ashamed, because no matter what I do there is a still that lingering uncomfortableness in the back of my mind which leads me to conclude that I might be wrong about my perception of myself. Now I need to state that I am depressed and have generalized anxiety disorder, which may be convoluting things even more, but if you could proceed based on the assumption that those things are a part of my identity, that would be great.
Basically I don't trust myself and I don't want to state what I think I am, because I've spent so much time learning about the psychological functions and each of the types that I feel like it's extremely easy to fake what I am and choose whatever sounds best and most appealing to me at the time. Too much knowledge. Not that I desire that consciously, but maybe unconsciously. I don't think anything I'm saying makes sense. Sorry. I really just want help and an outside, unbiased opinion. I want the objectivity I can't seem to find within myself so I can at least get some sort of answer/closure. I'm not taking a survey or anything because I've done that before, and it's sooo easy to know exactly how what I'm saying can affect how people respond. As in "If I say this, I know they will do this." If that's helpful, though, I'm still willing to give it a try again.
I'm having trouble articulating myself, so I suppose all I want is assistance. Thanks.
(P.S. I know extremely well how the functions work, at least in theory, so if you need more details and you want me to talk in Myers Briggs terms instead, I can do that too.)
Anyway.
I've been interested in MBTI/Myers Briggs since I was around 12 years old. So a long time. As I've gotten older and am beginning to become a young adult, I keep doubting what I understand about myself. Especially since people tell me differently. I almost feel like going through being a teenager and only listening to other people and what they state about me has led me to not have a true understanding of myself, even when I search and search and have spent just as many years trying to understand who I am and what the implications of that are.
I feel kind of stupid and ashamed, because no matter what I do there is a still that lingering uncomfortableness in the back of my mind which leads me to conclude that I might be wrong about my perception of myself. Now I need to state that I am depressed and have generalized anxiety disorder, which may be convoluting things even more, but if you could proceed based on the assumption that those things are a part of my identity, that would be great.
Basically I don't trust myself and I don't want to state what I think I am, because I've spent so much time learning about the psychological functions and each of the types that I feel like it's extremely easy to fake what I am and choose whatever sounds best and most appealing to me at the time. Too much knowledge. Not that I desire that consciously, but maybe unconsciously. I don't think anything I'm saying makes sense. Sorry. I really just want help and an outside, unbiased opinion. I want the objectivity I can't seem to find within myself so I can at least get some sort of answer/closure. I'm not taking a survey or anything because I've done that before, and it's sooo easy to know exactly how what I'm saying can affect how people respond. As in "If I say this, I know they will do this." If that's helpful, though, I'm still willing to give it a try again.
I'm having trouble articulating myself, so I suppose all I want is assistance. Thanks.
(P.S. I know extremely well how the functions work, at least in theory, so if you need more details and you want me to talk in Myers Briggs terms instead, I can do that too.)