• Tested as INTJ originally
• Tested more and did more research, trying to be certain
• Went through stages of thinking I was several types (all NT)
• Tested with a certified practitioner during an unhealthy time, walked away with INTP (Oddly enough, always expressed trouble with Se, even while thinking INTP)
• Stuck with that for a while
• Had some people point out my not-so-inferior Fe a year or two later
• Wondered if ENTP again, then eliminated as option (I'm definitely cognitively introverted)
• Read a particular INFJ source that resonates with me very well.........dismissed it but kept wondering as I interacted with others and noticed how different my responses were from other INTPs
• Everyone kept suggesting I have abnormal Fe for an INTP / saying I seem like an F type in general, and I was certain of Nx, Ti, Fe, and massive Se issues by now, certain of introversion that borderlines social extroversion at times, and 100% certain of not being Te inferior INFP bc I'm "tremendously logical," (probably looping) as one friend put it and I struggle more with Se than Te by a landslide, and I'm too firmly Ti, not Te
• ENTP friend helped me to get past the bias of wanting to be NT and come to terms with INFJ (he insisted I was one, too)
• It forced me to look across my memories / my life and realize INFJ fell into place for my entire life, including cognitive function development timing and placement. Everything all in order, and at the right times. Everything just suddenly made sense, and MBTI was no longer a convoluted jigsaw with pieces flying around everywhere. It all fell into place, naturally, just happened, not forced. It was just there and it lined up.
• It came to a checkmate, I had 0 evidence against INFJ, 0 counter-arguments once everything clicked. No more questions at all. Suddenly it made sense, and so did MBTI (which I was previously getting ready to discard).
So basically, I just didn't want to be an F.
Entire process was 4-5 years.
Practitioner testing was the 3rd year.
I never got an INFJ result in my entire time, not once. I had to learn the cognitive functions and get past my bias of needing to be a T. (I was raised to esteem logic highly.)
This is another possible reason for it all:
INFJ Ni-Ti loop: An INFJ in an Ni-Ti loop attempts to suppress their emotional side, shutting themselves off from others and becoming unable to share their feelings with those around them. They will become extremely withdrawn and private, attempting to become analytical and logical without employing their feeling side. They will attempt to view everything in a logical light while shutting off their tendency to consider things in the light of the feelings and values of those around them. In addition, they will repress their feelings.
Can you describe what each loop looks/acts like,... - Confessions of a Myers Briggs-aholic
Ni-Ti can easily be mistaken for Ti Dom and N type.
Honestly though...all along it was right in front of my face. I never doubted the N for a second, I've had others outside of MBTI interest circles comment on various things that MBTI calls N traits so I know it's not just self-delusion, and Se was what I claimed as my Achilles Heel even if it wasn't what I thought was my inferior function. That should have told me that I was Ni-Dom and Se-Inferior rather easily. With that, it leaves either INTJ or INFJ and since I know Te is consciously forced and exercised, while Ti is more natural...the answer is clear.