haphazard, I'm going to say this one last time and hope you pay attention instead of nitpicking the rest of my post: clean up your attitude, it stinks. What good is wallowing in your own self pity going to do for you? That's not a rhetorical question - you should have a long, hard think about it. For years I've struggled with my weight, and it was only recently when I realised that I had to find something that would work instead of feeling sorry for myself about the stuff that didn't.
You should also realise your position is not unique. There are plenty of people in the world your weight or heavier who have gone on to lose all those extra lbs despite early set backs. The only difference between them and you is attitude. They found what worked and did that. You just need to try different stuff until you find what works. I saw a video online the other day of a guy called ben who lost over 120lbs in something like 18 months. I'll look for the link later and post it on here. I think you should watch it.
EDIT: Damn youtube tags aren't working.. Click
HERE instead to see the video.
p.s. If there was ever anyone not designed for running it's me. I'm 5'2 with stumpy legs and bad knees (the clicky knees run in the family on BOTH sides

). So you saying things like:
You are not so unfit as you say......YOU may have been designed to run, but I am not.
not only is knocking yourself down, but is diminishing MY accomplishment. Which I will not tolerate. I do not find running easy, but I do find it enjoyable. There's a difference.
We are not so different, you and me. I believe, from a quick glance at your blog, that we are about the same age (19), have similar interests like music (you play viola - an instrument I've always LOVED - and I play flute&piano), and crafty things (you knit awesome things, and I like to sew bags). I wish you'd listen to advice from people trying to help you, and realise YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Everyone has their own problems you know, you just need to learn how to deal with yours. Good luck
