Dreamer
Potential is My Addiction
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Well, I think I understood. I'll try to answer some of the questions that @Coriolis using what @Ixaerus said would work.
- Why do you give solutions-based advice?
I guess that it's easier. It's the first thing that comes into my mind. I know that some people just want some emotional support but when hearing somebody I forget that and act in my own way. I can offer emotional support too but this is more like a strategic move like if I want the person to like me, I do it.
Why do people think you are cold? What do you do that makes them think so, and why?
I never notice that I'm distant, I'm always in my head and I prefer to do things alone. Per example, I live with my girlfriend and most of the time I prefer to expend my time using the internet and searching about types and trying to discover my own. She always complains that I don't give her enough attention so I give her some attention but 10 minutes late I'm already bored. When I was a kid I always stayed in my mind and solved my problems alone, this made my mom feel distant from me. I don't know, I also refused to go visit her friends even when she said that people thought she was holding me at home. Because I knew that it was my decision and I just didn't care. I think I also don't care to expectations on me.
In work people usually think I'm dumb or slow because sometimes I see someone that needs help and think "he can do it alone" so I won't help. And I also don't feel the need to explain that to others, so I just let them think of me that way. There are times that I play dumb and pretend I do not know how to do something for someone else to do.
Why do you care about family/friends? What is the nature of those bonds or relationships? In what way are they important to you?
I really don't know, there were times that I got myself thinking if I really loved my mom. It's strange because how do you even know it? How does love feel? I know how a shock feels, how fear feels but love sometimes seems void. I only realized that I loved my grandma when she died and I missed her and I was the only one crying at the funeral and wondered why no one seemed to care so much about her death. But while she was alive I lived near her and never did a visit, never asked how she was or how she felt. Actually, I act with my mom almost the same way, I rarely go to see her but I try to be more gentle and caring. Sometimes I feel guilty about that I don't know if love should feel more than avoid but at the same time I just want to see everybody happy because it would make me happy too I think. I think I can't tell how they are important too. If I try to think about how people matter to me, I won't feel their importance or my love to them, it's more like when I'm close to them and they are laughing, it makes me happy and I realize I love'em. But here, alone with my pc is like I don't feel anything for anybody.
Why do you forget about your lists? Why do you make them in the first place?
I just forget them, it's like this: I think "Hmm, I should make a list of 10 interest of mine so I can develop my Ne" I write them out and don't do anything about and just let the list to accumulate with others... Now thinking about it's like the feeling of accomplishment for making the list is enough so I don't carry out my plans. Yeah, I feel like I've accomplished something so I just jump to one plan from another always starting something and never doing something about it.
Why do I do want to find my type? What I'll make with it?
I was doing ok in life but then I started to feel down and insecure about my career as a musician. So I just got back into studying MBTI in a pursuit to understand myself better. My way of thinking and my motivations. It led to me thinking in give up music to start my second interest which is math. I got confused by my options and started searching everywhere and asking advice, what made me make a choice was a book that defended the idea of doing something you are good at and becoming a specialist so good that others start to notice you. So that way you can become creative and in control of your career, two things that I felt were lacking in my career. That made me realize that I'm more good in music than anything else and even that I'm suffering right now I must suck it up and become better. But still, I want to understand myself because suddenly it became important to know what type is mine, like not being sure of it is like not being sure of who I am. It's a feeling of missing out a piece of a puzzle. Feeling incomplete.
Just thought I’d throw in that I totally get what you’re talking about here and have for the most part been guilty of this sort of habit or tendency for most my life. It really wasn’t until I finally started to find myself no longer stimulated simply by the “planning†part of it, and that stimulation soon came in forms of actually doing and setting things in motion. I still find myself stopping short of actually accomplishing some of my goals, but the point is, the most important part for me is, that my longer term goals and desires in life are those that are constanty in motion. “Sillyâ€, more random goals I might set for myself one Sunday afternoon like eat healthier or exercise more (these actually aren’t issues for me, just common place examples for use here) are the goals that tend to fall by the wayside, but in the end, those really aren’t the goals I wish to hold myself accountable to, or the sorts of goals that I would identify as most representative of “meâ€.
So ya, thought I’d just drop in as an Ne type to offer my two cents and relation to what you’ve described, and where it all stems from, from my point of view. Happy investigations