Purplemoon
New member
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- Jun 20, 2016
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- MBTI Type
- IxFP
- Enneagram
- 5w6
I'm 22 years old, and it's been nearly four years since I graduated from highschool. In those four years, I have never had a job, and I'm not even close to finishing a degree. The reasons for this are: 1. nothing really interests me, 2. I constantly doubt myself and my intellectual/academic capabilities, and 3. I was given no guidance whatsoever from my parents and school "career/college" counsellors. I've always just kind of drifted through life, with no real passion or interest in anything.
I have no clue what college major I should choose. I've thought about majoring in English, but I hate writing and I'm not very good at it. I've thought about majoring in art or music history, but that's only because they're the only topics I actually like learning and reading about. I've considered majoring in accounting, but that's only because my parents think I would be a good accountant, not because I actually have an interest in the subject.
In terms of careers/jobs, I have considered becoming a librarian, an art teacher, a private tutor, a bookkeeper, an art historian, a music teacher, a technical writer, a graphic designer, a curator, and a paralegal. I've seriously considered becoming a paralegal, but I hear conflicting information on the level of education required, plus I constantly horror stories about the field.
I struggle with concentration, and I'm starting to realize how much I hate dealing with details. I get frustrated and give up on myself easily, and I hate "small talk". I have no desire to build "deep" relationships with people I find irritating and could care less about. I've been this way for as long as I can remember. As a child and adolescent, I did not care about having a large group of friends, and I paid no attention to social hierarchies or cliques. My only goal was to get decent grades and get out of the hell-hole known as the public school system. I have always had good manners, so it's not that I'm an exceptionally cruel person, I'm just a very private and reserved person.
I just don't know what path to follow, and I need help. I'd like to do something I enjoy, but I also don't want to be perpetually broke.
I have no clue what college major I should choose. I've thought about majoring in English, but I hate writing and I'm not very good at it. I've thought about majoring in art or music history, but that's only because they're the only topics I actually like learning and reading about. I've considered majoring in accounting, but that's only because my parents think I would be a good accountant, not because I actually have an interest in the subject.
In terms of careers/jobs, I have considered becoming a librarian, an art teacher, a private tutor, a bookkeeper, an art historian, a music teacher, a technical writer, a graphic designer, a curator, and a paralegal. I've seriously considered becoming a paralegal, but I hear conflicting information on the level of education required, plus I constantly horror stories about the field.
I struggle with concentration, and I'm starting to realize how much I hate dealing with details. I get frustrated and give up on myself easily, and I hate "small talk". I have no desire to build "deep" relationships with people I find irritating and could care less about. I've been this way for as long as I can remember. As a child and adolescent, I did not care about having a large group of friends, and I paid no attention to social hierarchies or cliques. My only goal was to get decent grades and get out of the hell-hole known as the public school system. I have always had good manners, so it's not that I'm an exceptionally cruel person, I'm just a very private and reserved person.
I just don't know what path to follow, and I need help. I'd like to do something I enjoy, but I also don't want to be perpetually broke.