Zhaylin
New member
- Joined
- Jan 2, 2019
- Messages
- 468
- MBTI Type
- ISTJ
- Enneagram
- 952
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/so
1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location: 44 years old. Small town, WV, USA.
Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire?
HSP misdiagnosed as anxiety.
Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
I self-identify as one of Jehovah's Witnesses but I am not currently practicing my faith.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
INFP.
I considered INFJ, in the past, because I'm highly intuitive (but my scores don't reflect that, so it might be more of an HSP thing).
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
What ever I want it to be. I want to get back into my Faith, where my passion, beliefs and social circle are- but that's not going to happen any time soon. I have made peace with that, though.
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I call myself a sloth, so that answers the first part. Cleaning overwhelms me; especially with my rowdy crew, and the ever growing colony of cats, still living at home. It's an impossible undertaking (and the primary reason I'm not in my Faith).
I least relate to... ??? I want to say anger. But I understand it. If you understand something, you can relate to it, right? But, that means, I could relate to all of them. Hmm... (Consults the Wiki)
OH! It's much more than all that. Heh, Sloth better describes me than I first thought!!!
Pride would be least relate-able.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to:
Those who are confident and intelligent OR whomever looks like they're sad or lost.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
??
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Racists, abusers
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
Confidence and intelligence. I'm plagued by self and social doubt: when to act, how to act. I have the worlds worst memory. In around the 3rd grade, a teacher called me stupid because I could learn something and perfectly understand it one minute but completely forget it the next. (I have no memory of the event but my mother raged about it all my life).
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
A thing to be avoided at all costs. When I reach the point I'm seething with anger, I lose control and become an abuser.
My second child always pushed my buttons. To this day, she never knows when to shut her trap. When he was 13 or 14, he kept going on and on and on and I told him if he didn't shut his mouth and drop the subject, I would beat him (a general term for a basic spanking; which I also never really did). Even his siblings were yelling at him to shut up and telling him he was being disrespectful. He wouldn't. I swatted his leg with a belt, then he swore at me and the next thing I knew, I smacked him right across the face with the belt. Then I went to my room. I've basically been here ever since.
(She's 24 years old now, still at home. I used pronouns interchangingly because she was my son back then, but is hoping to transition one day. She still pushes my buttons to the extreme.)
b) Shame
I thing I've often felt. Shame over actions (above) or feelings or just being different. It's not something I consciously ever project onto someone else.
c) Fear
Meh. Fear is safety, to a point- fear of injury, accident, that sort of thing. It's wise to have a healthy degree of it: I'm extra careful when walking down the rickety stairs of our porch, for instance, because I'm fearful of falling down them. It's not something I think a lot about or am paralyzed by.
d) Love/passion
Love is taking care of the people in your life (emotionally, financially, spiritually). Passion, I guess, is something you have strong feelings about. I'm not really passionate about anything except perhaps making sure people feel safe and heard. and my religious beliefs.
e) Conflict
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, ect)?
HSP. Before medication (for anxiety), whenever I'm highly stressed or simply bombarded by sensory (sights, sounds, emotions), I fall asleep. I also become plagued by, what I call adrenaline surges. They feel like an adrenaline rush, but are located primarily around my mouth. And they surge. Here... gone, back... gone again. I will have them for weeks and months on end and they exhaust me beyond words. So, while I scoff at the anxiety label (I don't fret or fuss or worry about stuff), I am grateful for the meds because I now function and I don't fall asleep while driving!!!!!
Other than that... ??? I struggle with being assertive, with keeping up with chores and responsibilities, with NOT being so lazy and absent-minded. That's about it. All in all, I've had a blessed life (I've not had to worry about food or shelter, illnesses or disabilities for the most part).
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) [College aged and above] What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
b)[Under college aged] What do you plan on studying/working as in the future? How did you go about deciding this? If this is not your ideal area of pursuit, what would be?
N/A I had no idea about any of that stuff. I had no interest or interest in pursuing higher education. I didn't even make it out of High School (though I returned for my GED). I always wanted to be a writer and/or mother.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Their eyes and demeanor. If I can't "read" them, I put my guard up.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I don't really think about it and I don't really worry about the biggest problems of the human race because I'm confident in my religious views (in which the planet will last forever, the bad people will be done away with along with sickness and death, and whereon the majority of righteous mankind will carry out God's original purpose of taking care of the planet, the animals and the people). I tend to fixate on individuals and how they can improve things in the here and now (without being destructive to the planet etc, because just because I believe in an end-game, it doesn't mean we get to be disrespectful jerks)
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
Binging shows, video games, studying personality stuff (MBTI, Enneagrams etc), music, crochet, nature.
13) How do you usually “hang out†with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
N/A I have no friends- just my hubby, kids and pets. Hubby lives in a different house. He's my only friend and we don't hang out lol. We GO OUT, sometimes, but even that is rare unless it's to see a movie.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Both. People need to hear how you feel but see that you mean it.
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose….
a) To never be able to experience the sensation of taste
b) To be immortal
c) To lose your memories
d) To be poor for the rest of your life
e) Or to never experience passion
Elaborate on why!
To be immortal, of course!! I used to LOVE vampires and shows like the Highlander. That seemed like the best thing in the world, to live forever. With my religious views, that's possible
My kids, who don't share those views, always argues that it sounds dreadfully boring. I tell them to just imagine all the stuff they could study or discover; to see the advances in clean technology and space travel. Sounds like the best thing ever. BUT, even if I was the only person with the curse in this example, I would still choose it 
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
Chaotic, self-centered to the detriment of others, wrathful, hot-headed, loud, overly emotional (too many public displays of strong emotions)
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
?? I often become obsessed with whatever I'm interested in at the moment... until burnout lol.
Ahhh, going along with the flow? I tend to voice my preference, then go along with the flow. Whatever's needed to keep the peace and make the other person most happy is what I'm okay with.... until I'm overlooked too many times. Then I'll speak out a bit louder.
Then still give in, usually.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
I am messy. But there's still a bit of organization to it. I like plans and blueprints to a point.
Like, whenever I travel with hubby for his education (he has to receive so many credits every year to keep his MD), I want to know the exacts: What day do we leave on? What time do we leave? How long will we be gone for? But, don't tell me to be outside his garage at 3:15 AM
Instead, tell me "Be here before 3:30 AM". I like structure, but I don't like to be micromanaged.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
A harmonious environment with comfortable seating and lots to do (tv, consoles, PC, books, games etc.)
*whew* Taking a break before tackling another one.
a) What is your age range and general location: 44 years old. Small town, WV, USA.
Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire?
HSP misdiagnosed as anxiety.
Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
I self-identify as one of Jehovah's Witnesses but I am not currently practicing my faith.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
INFP.
I considered INFJ, in the past, because I'm highly intuitive (but my scores don't reflect that, so it might be more of an HSP thing).
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
What ever I want it to be. I want to get back into my Faith, where my passion, beliefs and social circle are- but that's not going to happen any time soon. I have made peace with that, though.
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I call myself a sloth, so that answers the first part. Cleaning overwhelms me; especially with my rowdy crew, and the ever growing colony of cats, still living at home. It's an impossible undertaking (and the primary reason I'm not in my Faith).
I least relate to... ??? I want to say anger. But I understand it. If you understand something, you can relate to it, right? But, that means, I could relate to all of them. Hmm... (Consults the Wiki)
OH! It's much more than all that. Heh, Sloth better describes me than I first thought!!!
Pride would be least relate-able.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to:
Those who are confident and intelligent OR whomever looks like they're sad or lost.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
??
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Racists, abusers
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
Confidence and intelligence. I'm plagued by self and social doubt: when to act, how to act. I have the worlds worst memory. In around the 3rd grade, a teacher called me stupid because I could learn something and perfectly understand it one minute but completely forget it the next. (I have no memory of the event but my mother raged about it all my life).
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
A thing to be avoided at all costs. When I reach the point I'm seething with anger, I lose control and become an abuser.
My second child always pushed my buttons. To this day, she never knows when to shut her trap. When he was 13 or 14, he kept going on and on and on and I told him if he didn't shut his mouth and drop the subject, I would beat him (a general term for a basic spanking; which I also never really did). Even his siblings were yelling at him to shut up and telling him he was being disrespectful. He wouldn't. I swatted his leg with a belt, then he swore at me and the next thing I knew, I smacked him right across the face with the belt. Then I went to my room. I've basically been here ever since.
(She's 24 years old now, still at home. I used pronouns interchangingly because she was my son back then, but is hoping to transition one day. She still pushes my buttons to the extreme.)
b) Shame
I thing I've often felt. Shame over actions (above) or feelings or just being different. It's not something I consciously ever project onto someone else.
c) Fear
Meh. Fear is safety, to a point- fear of injury, accident, that sort of thing. It's wise to have a healthy degree of it: I'm extra careful when walking down the rickety stairs of our porch, for instance, because I'm fearful of falling down them. It's not something I think a lot about or am paralyzed by.
d) Love/passion
Love is taking care of the people in your life (emotionally, financially, spiritually). Passion, I guess, is something you have strong feelings about. I'm not really passionate about anything except perhaps making sure people feel safe and heard. and my religious beliefs.
e) Conflict
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, ect)?
HSP. Before medication (for anxiety), whenever I'm highly stressed or simply bombarded by sensory (sights, sounds, emotions), I fall asleep. I also become plagued by, what I call adrenaline surges. They feel like an adrenaline rush, but are located primarily around my mouth. And they surge. Here... gone, back... gone again. I will have them for weeks and months on end and they exhaust me beyond words. So, while I scoff at the anxiety label (I don't fret or fuss or worry about stuff), I am grateful for the meds because I now function and I don't fall asleep while driving!!!!!
Other than that... ??? I struggle with being assertive, with keeping up with chores and responsibilities, with NOT being so lazy and absent-minded. That's about it. All in all, I've had a blessed life (I've not had to worry about food or shelter, illnesses or disabilities for the most part).
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) [College aged and above] What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
b)[Under college aged] What do you plan on studying/working as in the future? How did you go about deciding this? If this is not your ideal area of pursuit, what would be?
N/A I had no idea about any of that stuff. I had no interest or interest in pursuing higher education. I didn't even make it out of High School (though I returned for my GED). I always wanted to be a writer and/or mother.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Their eyes and demeanor. If I can't "read" them, I put my guard up.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I don't really think about it and I don't really worry about the biggest problems of the human race because I'm confident in my religious views (in which the planet will last forever, the bad people will be done away with along with sickness and death, and whereon the majority of righteous mankind will carry out God's original purpose of taking care of the planet, the animals and the people). I tend to fixate on individuals and how they can improve things in the here and now (without being destructive to the planet etc, because just because I believe in an end-game, it doesn't mean we get to be disrespectful jerks)
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
Binging shows, video games, studying personality stuff (MBTI, Enneagrams etc), music, crochet, nature.
13) How do you usually “hang out†with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
N/A I have no friends- just my hubby, kids and pets. Hubby lives in a different house. He's my only friend and we don't hang out lol. We GO OUT, sometimes, but even that is rare unless it's to see a movie.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Both. People need to hear how you feel but see that you mean it.
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose….
a) To never be able to experience the sensation of taste
b) To be immortal
c) To lose your memories
d) To be poor for the rest of your life
e) Or to never experience passion
Elaborate on why!
To be immortal, of course!! I used to LOVE vampires and shows like the Highlander. That seemed like the best thing in the world, to live forever. With my religious views, that's possible

16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
Chaotic, self-centered to the detriment of others, wrathful, hot-headed, loud, overly emotional (too many public displays of strong emotions)
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
?? I often become obsessed with whatever I'm interested in at the moment... until burnout lol.
Ahhh, going along with the flow? I tend to voice my preference, then go along with the flow. Whatever's needed to keep the peace and make the other person most happy is what I'm okay with.... until I'm overlooked too many times. Then I'll speak out a bit louder.
Then still give in, usually.

18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
I am messy. But there's still a bit of organization to it. I like plans and blueprints to a point.
Like, whenever I travel with hubby for his education (he has to receive so many credits every year to keep his MD), I want to know the exacts: What day do we leave on? What time do we leave? How long will we be gone for? But, don't tell me to be outside his garage at 3:15 AM

19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
A harmonious environment with comfortable seating and lots to do (tv, consoles, PC, books, games etc.)
*whew* Taking a break before tackling another one.
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