I won't say what I tested as (don't want a bias), but it didn't seem exactly right. If everyone else has the same answer then I'll accept it haha.
so.. about me...
Growing up I was very introverted. I was shy and extremely sensitive to any criticism, bullying, etc. I cried a lot (though mostly in private). I had a number of very close friends but was still unpopular in my extremely clique-y school. I was smart, always testing in the 98th-99th percentile on standardized tests. I stopped applying myself in about 7th grade, so my grades took a dip. I ran away from home for a day in 8th grade because I was too scared to show my parents my report card (I didn't want to disappoint them).
I loved video games, reading, and (when I was very young) playing fantasy games with my brother and best friend. I was not athletic and had very low self confidence overall.
Me today:
I think I'm still introverted, but I've become a much more outgoing introvert. I love spending time with my friends and I don't mind being the center of attention as much as I used to. I am very well liked by my friends and most people who get to know me (although I sometimes wonder why). Though I still think I that I NEED alone time after too much socializing.
Everyone always tells me I'm "laid-back" and "chill," which I guess makes sense, but on the inside I am very emotional. I really hate upsetting people, and if I do, it normally eats at me for a very long time. I hate criticism/conflict and normally try very hard to keep peace. If someone upsets me I normally try to shake it off and not show how much it hurt me.
I am very lazy. I procrastinate EVERYTHING, even things I legitimately want to do very much (example: I want to consistently write music/fiction, but the ideas very rarely leave my head)
I love taking walks by myself (or with a willing participant). I love walking through fields, hilly areas, beaches- especially under the stars. I guess in general I really love and appreciate natural beauty. I can walk for hours and be completely entertained by my thoughts.
I am a hopeless romantic, although I'm probably the only person who knows this. I used to have ZERO confidence when talking to girls because I perceived myself as completely undesirable. Most of my close female friends have since convinced me that I actually have worth, although I think most girls would be turned off by how passive/innocent I come off as. Even though all of my friends try to tell me that I'm a "catch," I still have never had a girlfriend (18 y.o.) and I tend to screw up any opportunities.
-One thing I've noticed: any time a potential relationship comes up, I always seem to lose interest in the girl. I wonder if it's because I believe I will screw it up, or because I have very strange standards. All I can say is that I have found something wrong with every single girl that has ever "liked" me. However every girl I've ever felt strong feelings for has always seemed to be out of my reach.
I daydream- all day, every day. I can easily dream up a scenario emotional enough to cause me to cry. Sometimes I will get so caught up in a fantasy that it will disappoint me when reality crashes down and I remember that it's not real.
My hobbies include: playing bass/guitar, smoking weed, video games, hanging with friends, looking up random things on the internet (I literally spend hours doing this), taking walks... that's pretty much it.
hmmm... what else?
another thing - when no one will take a role of responsibility I often find myself doing it. It seems like a lot of people look up to me as a leader, and although I am pretty sure I'm not a natural leader, I don't really mind being one.
I guess the part I was most confused about was the N/S side of me. Does either one seem obvious? I have a pretty solid idea of the other three letters though. Any input is appreciated!
