Vendrah
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Hi, I think I already know my 4-letter type and personality, but I wish to hear second opinions. I am not familiar with ennegram, so I would like to be typed in the ennegram thing too. Thanks for reading.
I will answer some questions and then show my function stack order.
I vs E
When I was a child, I used to be extroverted (others could tell). However, as a teenager, I got, well, well… Bullied… and then I got very introverted and been introverted since them. Question is – am I introverted (by my present) or am I extroverted with bad experience/undeveloped social skills? Usually good things dont happen when I talk too much. I already wrote about this subject in MBTI a lot, but I would like to hear others opinions.
This trauma stills changes my personality today (it persists, that happened almost 10 years ago), although I have been recovering and getting better each year. I get a little bit prudent with socializing, and I think that people are a little too much toxic, and I prefer more one one or close friends today because I know they wont f—k me up. Some people are just too intoxicating and I prefer to simply quit or try to avoid fighting them.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Descripting beauty is like descripting color red to a blind man. It just cant be done. At least not simply or with a short description. Love is a little bit different, but very hard to explain. Love is more or less the moment where you appreciate, care, and worry about someone you like soo much.
2. What are your most important values?
My most important values are being honest, honor (honor your words, honor your values as much as you can), empathy (however not everyone deserves my empathy). It is very important to not be guilty for the terrible things that happens to others in any way and it is very important to either have a good moral compass or be capable of have a strong and inteligence thinking of what is right and wrong.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I am agnostic, the person who says that maybe God is real, maybe God is unreal. Agnostic are very honest about the other life: We just dont know. I believe, not hardly, that we have a soul and life doesnt end in death, but life could just end in death, or not.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Not every war is stupid, but most of them usually are. I just hope I am not forced to fight a stupid war. Power to me is the ability to have and do anything you want anytime.
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
My interests are varied, sometimes it is like I have interest in everything and sometimes I dont have any interest at all. I like gaming - racing simulators, FPS shooters and Sim Builders (Sim City and cousins); I do like statistics, I do like a bit of psycology (just found out in a few years), I do like science, but I already took a lot of it and that subject is on vacation for some time, I do like cars, I do like music (just listening, maybe I could try some program that creates/generates music) and as far as I remeber thats it. Saying why is long and complicated, I prefer just say that I just like. I would also want to say that I dislike programming and hate learning language with passion (english is useful at least, but I just wish everybody talked the same language).
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
As a conversation topic, no. My knowledge of medicine is small, but it is focused on my body needs. My body needs just to be fine, I had some sleep issues (and I have some knowledge on that because of the issue).
7. What do you think of daily chores?
I try to not do them, and if I have to do them, I do it fast (as fast as I can).
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
Lots of books and films. My most favorite book is the Principle 80/20 from Richard Kchoff (I dont know how to write kchoff), I usually read some self-help and productivity books, and I have a book or two about astronomy and a book or two about jokes. I dont like story-telling books because I prefer to see the movie – you take 20-30 hours to read the book and just 2 for the movie, so, the book is better and more deep but it takes way too much time. But a good story telling book without a movie is a sure-read, and in this matter I like The Foundation Series from Isac Azimoov (I would had dismissed the book for the movie if it had a movie). About movies, I do like super-hero movies (avengers rules in this subject) science fiction movies (specially movies that challanges your inteligence a bit, like Inception and Donnie Darko), I also like adventure movies (I like Indiana Jones).
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
I smile because of lots of things, I smile when I find out something really interesting I didnt know about, when my gaming goes sucessfully (and when I made some cheaters angry), when someone does something great and sometimes I smile out of my own thoughts, when I daydream something funny for me (ok, I daydream a little bit too much). I cried in the exercise of facing death (a book recommended it, it is a good exercise when done properly), I usually cry when I miss someone soo much. To be honest, I dont cry much because I used to have a lot of apathy and my culture disencourage crying. I cried in Titanic movie, but because I was watching it alone, I master suppressing my cry because I need to.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
I dont feel at one with my enviromnment and my sense of belonging used to be none, and today I am developing a feel/sense of belonging to the good side of this world (too hard to explain). Some people are just evil or disgusting, I am in a place where stealing is usual and my country is ranked very well in murders rate, my values are stepped every day, soo I actually feel I dont belong.
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
I dont track what people think about me by some time now. I wish I had a better appearence, although I am not ugly, I wish I could be more disciplined, I wish I had a bit more lucky, I wish I mastered english, I wish I wasnt a little bit lazy (I am fighting laziness and proscratination all the time, thats my biggest problem), I wish I had a photography memory so I wouldnt need to keep re-reading things until I finally remember it, I wish I could find better friends in real life, ok, done with wishing because its starting to go beyond the question.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
I have a paradox of being pride in some moments and incredibly shameful in others. Im more in the pride day today. I like my inteligence, although I am not a genious, I like my good moral compass although I feel many people around me hate it, I like my capacity of understanding manipulation and my partial but good immunity to manipulation (“did they thought they were going to catch me with this primitive old trick? Seriously?â€), I like how I deteced and controled my greed. I could go with this list.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
I dont know!
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
I havent got what the word rut means on the easy google dictionary, it means something like getting the same thing over and over again and not being able to move? If yes, I would say that when it happens its not my fault, I can move, the enviroment, however, loves to force me to not move, except when I used to have lot of apathy or when I am being a little lazy.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like honesty, good character, open minded, inteligent and cool. I dont like people who judge me with poor base/arguments, I dont like people who are greed and wants money, prestigie and put themselves above you and desperately wants you to envy them so they feel better. I dont like people who are way too stupid or way too terrible in the activity we are doing, but I dont need my friends to be inteligent, just not too stupid.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
I dont exactly know the first question. The second, I would repeat the answers on 15, although I would add compassion/empathy and not being ugly.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
What a question! I would be concerned if my child gets a little too evil, if my child is too stupid, I would try to get a little bit more organized for the child´s sake and I would ensure the good things for him/her.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Inward reaction is anger, actually this happens all the time. My beliefs evolved to be a little bit more than just mere beliefs, since I always looking for what is right all the time. If the friend says something valid, no anger, just a lot of listening. But if it is something toxic I get angry inside. I used to show the anger outward, but to be honest, I dont know if I should just get away and escape the conflict or if I should face it, either option usually dont end up well.
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
A prevalent social problem? I live in Brazil and the social problem list is endless. Ok, in fact, not endless, just super big. The main one is high gini coefficient, aka high inequalty, seeing homeless is usual, and although I usually gives a coin, I feel a little bit bad for them and a lot angry about the situation (but my anger is not towards the homeless, it is towards the situation).
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
This question is tricky and could get me banned on the fórum because of the rules, so I skip this one. But I actually learned to perceive patterns of behavior that predict conflict before the conflict happens. For example, on my FPS Shooting online friends, there was a guy which I predicted I was going to fight, so I avoided him (and even had to play alone because of that sometimes), and one day my friends showed up saying: “Hey, we fought him and his friends†and I said “Wow, I avoided him because I knew I was going to fight him, but I didnt expected you guys to fight him so hardlyâ€.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
Normal. Just say good morning/evening/night and then move on.
22. PS
I would like to add a very important thing.
I do get angry very usually, but I dont show it (it nevers ends well and I cant really show it anyway), but I never destroyed anything or like that. My anger is that some stuff are just stupidly unfair, and I hate how much people (Im saying in my country in general) create fake values, beliefs and ideas (I repeat: All fake) to justify what they want (real example translated: “Taxes are unethical, it is a crime made legal by a mafia we call state.†usually followed by “not paying them is self-defense†and then, for self-defense, includes faking documents, paying and corrupt authorities, and so on) (if I found it, its mine then, nothing more fair than that) (every one of the other gender is just bad) (and the list goes on… annoying!). Everyone has beliefs, no one has a moral compass that works. Ok, actually, most people here has beliefs, and few people has a true moral compass, and the beliefs exists just to serve their own selfish and unethical purpose. Sometimes I like being alone, isolated, not because I hate people, but to escape from all of this. Even typing people is a escape from that.
23. Cognitive functions
Test A.
Cognitive Process Level of Development (Preference, Skill and Frequency of Use)
extraverted Sensing (Se) ******************** (20.9)
limited use
introverted Sensing (Si) ************** (14.7)
unused
extraverted Intuiting (Ne) ***************************************** (41.5)
excellent use
introverted Intuiting (Ni) *************************** (27.7)
average use
extraverted Thinking (Te) ******************************* (31.9)
good use
introverted Thinking (Ti) ******************************** (32.2)
good use
extraverted Feeling (Fe) ***************** (17.5)
limited use
introverted Feeling (Fi) ***************************************************** (53.2)
excellent use
Test B.
Ne=Fi>Ni=Te>Ti>Se>Fe>Si
Well, thats it, thanks!
I will answer some questions and then show my function stack order.
I vs E
When I was a child, I used to be extroverted (others could tell). However, as a teenager, I got, well, well… Bullied… and then I got very introverted and been introverted since them. Question is – am I introverted (by my present) or am I extroverted with bad experience/undeveloped social skills? Usually good things dont happen when I talk too much. I already wrote about this subject in MBTI a lot, but I would like to hear others opinions.
This trauma stills changes my personality today (it persists, that happened almost 10 years ago), although I have been recovering and getting better each year. I get a little bit prudent with socializing, and I think that people are a little too much toxic, and I prefer more one one or close friends today because I know they wont f—k me up. Some people are just too intoxicating and I prefer to simply quit or try to avoid fighting them.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Descripting beauty is like descripting color red to a blind man. It just cant be done. At least not simply or with a short description. Love is a little bit different, but very hard to explain. Love is more or less the moment where you appreciate, care, and worry about someone you like soo much.
2. What are your most important values?
My most important values are being honest, honor (honor your words, honor your values as much as you can), empathy (however not everyone deserves my empathy). It is very important to not be guilty for the terrible things that happens to others in any way and it is very important to either have a good moral compass or be capable of have a strong and inteligence thinking of what is right and wrong.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I am agnostic, the person who says that maybe God is real, maybe God is unreal. Agnostic are very honest about the other life: We just dont know. I believe, not hardly, that we have a soul and life doesnt end in death, but life could just end in death, or not.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Not every war is stupid, but most of them usually are. I just hope I am not forced to fight a stupid war. Power to me is the ability to have and do anything you want anytime.
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
My interests are varied, sometimes it is like I have interest in everything and sometimes I dont have any interest at all. I like gaming - racing simulators, FPS shooters and Sim Builders (Sim City and cousins); I do like statistics, I do like a bit of psycology (just found out in a few years), I do like science, but I already took a lot of it and that subject is on vacation for some time, I do like cars, I do like music (just listening, maybe I could try some program that creates/generates music) and as far as I remeber thats it. Saying why is long and complicated, I prefer just say that I just like. I would also want to say that I dislike programming and hate learning language with passion (english is useful at least, but I just wish everybody talked the same language).
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
As a conversation topic, no. My knowledge of medicine is small, but it is focused on my body needs. My body needs just to be fine, I had some sleep issues (and I have some knowledge on that because of the issue).
7. What do you think of daily chores?
I try to not do them, and if I have to do them, I do it fast (as fast as I can).
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
Lots of books and films. My most favorite book is the Principle 80/20 from Richard Kchoff (I dont know how to write kchoff), I usually read some self-help and productivity books, and I have a book or two about astronomy and a book or two about jokes. I dont like story-telling books because I prefer to see the movie – you take 20-30 hours to read the book and just 2 for the movie, so, the book is better and more deep but it takes way too much time. But a good story telling book without a movie is a sure-read, and in this matter I like The Foundation Series from Isac Azimoov (I would had dismissed the book for the movie if it had a movie). About movies, I do like super-hero movies (avengers rules in this subject) science fiction movies (specially movies that challanges your inteligence a bit, like Inception and Donnie Darko), I also like adventure movies (I like Indiana Jones).
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
I smile because of lots of things, I smile when I find out something really interesting I didnt know about, when my gaming goes sucessfully (and when I made some cheaters angry), when someone does something great and sometimes I smile out of my own thoughts, when I daydream something funny for me (ok, I daydream a little bit too much). I cried in the exercise of facing death (a book recommended it, it is a good exercise when done properly), I usually cry when I miss someone soo much. To be honest, I dont cry much because I used to have a lot of apathy and my culture disencourage crying. I cried in Titanic movie, but because I was watching it alone, I master suppressing my cry because I need to.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
I dont feel at one with my enviromnment and my sense of belonging used to be none, and today I am developing a feel/sense of belonging to the good side of this world (too hard to explain). Some people are just evil or disgusting, I am in a place where stealing is usual and my country is ranked very well in murders rate, my values are stepped every day, soo I actually feel I dont belong.
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
I dont track what people think about me by some time now. I wish I had a better appearence, although I am not ugly, I wish I could be more disciplined, I wish I had a bit more lucky, I wish I mastered english, I wish I wasnt a little bit lazy (I am fighting laziness and proscratination all the time, thats my biggest problem), I wish I had a photography memory so I wouldnt need to keep re-reading things until I finally remember it, I wish I could find better friends in real life, ok, done with wishing because its starting to go beyond the question.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
I have a paradox of being pride in some moments and incredibly shameful in others. Im more in the pride day today. I like my inteligence, although I am not a genious, I like my good moral compass although I feel many people around me hate it, I like my capacity of understanding manipulation and my partial but good immunity to manipulation (“did they thought they were going to catch me with this primitive old trick? Seriously?â€), I like how I deteced and controled my greed. I could go with this list.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
I dont know!
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
I havent got what the word rut means on the easy google dictionary, it means something like getting the same thing over and over again and not being able to move? If yes, I would say that when it happens its not my fault, I can move, the enviroment, however, loves to force me to not move, except when I used to have lot of apathy or when I am being a little lazy.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like honesty, good character, open minded, inteligent and cool. I dont like people who judge me with poor base/arguments, I dont like people who are greed and wants money, prestigie and put themselves above you and desperately wants you to envy them so they feel better. I dont like people who are way too stupid or way too terrible in the activity we are doing, but I dont need my friends to be inteligent, just not too stupid.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
I dont exactly know the first question. The second, I would repeat the answers on 15, although I would add compassion/empathy and not being ugly.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
What a question! I would be concerned if my child gets a little too evil, if my child is too stupid, I would try to get a little bit more organized for the child´s sake and I would ensure the good things for him/her.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Inward reaction is anger, actually this happens all the time. My beliefs evolved to be a little bit more than just mere beliefs, since I always looking for what is right all the time. If the friend says something valid, no anger, just a lot of listening. But if it is something toxic I get angry inside. I used to show the anger outward, but to be honest, I dont know if I should just get away and escape the conflict or if I should face it, either option usually dont end up well.
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
A prevalent social problem? I live in Brazil and the social problem list is endless. Ok, in fact, not endless, just super big. The main one is high gini coefficient, aka high inequalty, seeing homeless is usual, and although I usually gives a coin, I feel a little bit bad for them and a lot angry about the situation (but my anger is not towards the homeless, it is towards the situation).
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
This question is tricky and could get me banned on the fórum because of the rules, so I skip this one. But I actually learned to perceive patterns of behavior that predict conflict before the conflict happens. For example, on my FPS Shooting online friends, there was a guy which I predicted I was going to fight, so I avoided him (and even had to play alone because of that sometimes), and one day my friends showed up saying: “Hey, we fought him and his friends†and I said “Wow, I avoided him because I knew I was going to fight him, but I didnt expected you guys to fight him so hardlyâ€.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
Normal. Just say good morning/evening/night and then move on.
22. PS
I would like to add a very important thing.
I do get angry very usually, but I dont show it (it nevers ends well and I cant really show it anyway), but I never destroyed anything or like that. My anger is that some stuff are just stupidly unfair, and I hate how much people (Im saying in my country in general) create fake values, beliefs and ideas (I repeat: All fake) to justify what they want (real example translated: “Taxes are unethical, it is a crime made legal by a mafia we call state.†usually followed by “not paying them is self-defense†and then, for self-defense, includes faking documents, paying and corrupt authorities, and so on) (if I found it, its mine then, nothing more fair than that) (every one of the other gender is just bad) (and the list goes on… annoying!). Everyone has beliefs, no one has a moral compass that works. Ok, actually, most people here has beliefs, and few people has a true moral compass, and the beliefs exists just to serve their own selfish and unethical purpose. Sometimes I like being alone, isolated, not because I hate people, but to escape from all of this. Even typing people is a escape from that.
23. Cognitive functions
Test A.
Cognitive Process Level of Development (Preference, Skill and Frequency of Use)
extraverted Sensing (Se) ******************** (20.9)
limited use
introverted Sensing (Si) ************** (14.7)
unused
extraverted Intuiting (Ne) ***************************************** (41.5)
excellent use
introverted Intuiting (Ni) *************************** (27.7)
average use
extraverted Thinking (Te) ******************************* (31.9)
good use
introverted Thinking (Ti) ******************************** (32.2)
good use
extraverted Feeling (Fe) ***************** (17.5)
limited use
introverted Feeling (Fi) ***************************************************** (53.2)
excellent use
Test B.
Ne=Fi>Ni=Te>Ti>Se>Fe>Si
Well, thats it, thanks!