I'm 22F and most tests indicate that I am an ENTJ. Lately, some of them show I'm an ESTJ and there was a period in my life that I was typed as an ENFP. I've also been typed as an INTJ. What I believe is that I'm most likely an ExxJ, but I'm not ruling out the possibility to be an Introvert or even a Perceiver.
I'm once again stuck and unsure about my personality type. I'll try to describe myself, but I really don't know if I "know" myself anymore and that's the problem. Sometimes, I don't even know If I'm describing myself the way I want it to be, the way I used to be or exactly as it is right now. And this uncertainty is only getting worse, now with the quarantine and pandemic...
Anyway, here are some (most people would say TOO many) facts about me:
Furthermore, I think my boyfriend of 3 years is an ENFP, I've made him take tests and after a lot of reading from various sources I think that's what suits him best. How can I be almost sure about my boyfriend's type, and not about mine?
What type am I for god's sake and why do I have such an urge to know? When I was younger I thought I was so damn special, so ahead of my time, mature, superior... But I was also kind and polite.
I know I'm droning on about all these, but I want or even better I NEED to ask each and everyone of you that has been through the same frustration to help me clear this out once and for all.
Thank you and please help me! I really need this.
I'm once again stuck and unsure about my personality type. I'll try to describe myself, but I really don't know if I "know" myself anymore and that's the problem. Sometimes, I don't even know If I'm describing myself the way I want it to be, the way I used to be or exactly as it is right now. And this uncertainty is only getting worse, now with the quarantine and pandemic...
Anyway, here are some (most people would say TOO many) facts about me:
- I'm studying Biotechnology in the University,
- I love researching things, all kinds of things (I mean it ALL KINDS) and I'm very curious.
- I always have multiple tabs open at Google Chrome (from 10 to 50+, maybe even 100 (in my worse)), going from one topic to another and so on. I've many bookmarks and I always keep things to "read later". I'm trying to keep them organised, but sometimes it gets out of hand.
- I’m a huge procrastinator (I think because of fear of failure and perfectionism)
- I'm also easily irritated by stupidity and ignorance (everyone else is stupid and not good enough right??? Just kidding... or am I?), although I try to be more understanding of people lately and not judge that much
- I sometimes find myself overwhelmed by huge crowds. The reason I say this is because people tend to not move on my pace. Actually, that's the problem. I expect people to act like I would act, I want them to act like I think they should act... And then I get disappointed because they obviously don't... (I just want to point out that this was true for me even before the pandemic)
- I love going out with my friends (clubs, bars, restaurants anything)
- I like playing games (all kinds of them) with my friends and my family
- I believe I'm funny, at least that's the impression I get from people. I make them laugh with my humour. I don't tell jokes so much, I just joke about myself (self-deprecating humour), tease everybody, make puns and lots of other stuff.
- I get emotional with dramatic movies (sometimes) and sad music (I'm somehow an expressive singer my self so I guess that has to do with my artistic side), and tragic stories at the news sometimes affect me emotionally.
- However, I sometimes appear cold and I'm blunt, straight forward, especially with my friends, boyfriend and family, and when something bothers me I don't hesitate to point it out (but it depends on who I'm talking to, I try to be polite with people I don't know very well)
- I hate lies and can't tell lies my self, and I really appreciate sincere people.
- I LOVE singing (I'm taking vocal lessons and I'll acquire my diploma this year hopefully), playing musical instruments, acting, dancing (performing arts in general) and I would love to play in a musical one day (or multiple musicals) and do voice-overs for animation films
- I'm quite melancholic and nostalgic, I love browsing through old family albums, photos and videos.
- I like walking really fast and I get annoyed by people who don't. I also hate when people stand in the left side of the escalator and don't leave room for others to walk their way up
- I hate people who don't care about others, who don't think about others, who don't follow rules, who are uncivilized etc.
- I criticise people (both others and my self) (I've managed to reduce the criticism a lot these past few years after finishing high school, however that side of me still shows from time to time. Let's not even talk about the thoughts I don't vocalise)
- I'm a perfectionist in a bad way --> procrastination (all or nothing approach since I entered university (I'm in a science field that I love (biotechnology), however I find it difficult to do everything that I'm supposed to, I find it difficult to concentrate but once I do everything is better))
- I used to get straight A's without trying in all of my school years, I was first in my class and I was the best in almost everything.
- I hate spelling mistakes and I'm a grammar nazi (in my mother tongue, I know I've made multiple mistakes here, my English have become somewhat rusty after so many years have passed since acquiring the certificate of Proficiency in English)
- I believe in schedules and I love organising things (I couldn't live without my e-agenda), I just sometimes have a rough time sticking to it
- I have an eye for detail and everybody relies on me for that. I want everything perfect from the biggest picture to the smallest detail and i don't compromise for anything less than that.
- Most of the times the hours of the day aren't enough for the things I want to do and I end up saying I wish I had more time. But the thing is... I believe that has to do with all the electronics that surround us and make us lose our focus and meet our goals to the fullest.
- I believe I'm ambitious, however I have somehow lost my faith in me and have a lack of motivation these past few years... I also sometimes appear modest, but in reality all I want to do is shout about my achievements, talents and awesome skills and I do that from time to time. I just can't help it.
- I tend to over analyse things, I over do it... I spend hours going over things and I also have a hard time making decisions. I want to consider everything before acting. However, most of the times i have a feeling, an instinct about what is the best thing to do (so I improvise too), but I'm never 100% sure about how things will come out and that kills me (another trait about me: I want to be sure about things and do not like taking risks most of the times)
- I also tend to be really good at many things from the moment I try them for the first time, but I rarely exceed to something. I think when it starts needing hard work I somehow stop trying, I believe I'm not good enough to make it. I think that if you can’t do it with minimal effort you’re not worth it. But talent isn't enough. Hard work is essential...
- I've spent some years now believing from time to time that I was suffering from depression. I've search it a lot and the idea can't get out of my mind. I used to be happier... I used to enjoy life... those are some thoughts I have from time to time. I don't know if I am depressed or if I ever was (I really don't and didn't have a reason to be, but as we know depression doesn't make exceptions, everything can be perfectly fine in your life and you can still feel empty, numb, sad or I don't know what else). The reason that I added this bullet is to take into account that too. I believe depression can make a mbti type showcase traits from another mbti type.
Furthermore, I think my boyfriend of 3 years is an ENFP, I've made him take tests and after a lot of reading from various sources I think that's what suits him best. How can I be almost sure about my boyfriend's type, and not about mine?
What type am I for god's sake and why do I have such an urge to know? When I was younger I thought I was so damn special, so ahead of my time, mature, superior... But I was also kind and polite.
I know I'm droning on about all these, but I want or even better I NEED to ask each and everyone of you that has been through the same frustration to help me clear this out once and for all.
Thank you and please help me! I really need this.