Masokissed
Spoiled Brat ðŸ’
- Joined
- Apr 22, 2015
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- MBTI Type
- ESFP
- Enneagram
- 7w6
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
7s, let's put our feelings on display and show these basic bitches that we ain't basic.
A depressed 7 is one of the saddest sights ever with the constant chasing your own tail thing.![]()
Nothing is good. I'm not good. It's hard to stay hopeful when it feels like there are such disappointing limitations on depth of connection with another human and on goodness in general. Also I feel constantly misunderstood, appearing flexible and happy, when really I'm striving so hard to find a place where I don't need to flex as much and can just exist and grow.
Lol how's that [MENTION=24829]Masokissed[/MENTION]?
Oh, depression. When I'm depressed, I start to feel like the walls are closing in on me. Not literally, the metaphorical walls. The walls of existence itself. Like there is nowhere to go. Nowhere to run. Nowhere but where I am. Like there are no opportunities for anything other than what I have at the moment, where I am at the moment. It's suffocation and stagnancy. Fear of stagnancy and of being trapped, I guess. I have a low-level of that all the time, but it doesn't take over like that unless I'm stressed.
Yeah, I copied that from my other thread LOL but it's my problem.
I also stop showering and develop a consistent body odor problem. LOL
Just kidding. The body odor is inconsistent.
Nothing is good. I'm not good. It's hard to stay hopeful when it feels like there are such disappointing limitations on depth of connection with another human and on goodness in general. Also I feel constantly misunderstood, appearing flexible and happy, when really I'm striving so hard to find a place where I don't need to flex as much and can just exist and grow.
Lol how's that [MENTION=24829]Masokissed[/MENTION]?
The hardest part for me right now is acknowledging that I'm still pinning my happiness on things outside of myself hoping they'll fulfill me. It's still hard for me to try to become my own source of happiness.
And it sucks because I knew this was a problem years ago and you think it goes away, but then you realize you ended up chasing your own tail like [MENTION=23222]senza tema[/MENTION] said and you realize you're still empty.
I sometimes wish the 7 would relinquish a bit of control over themselves (how I see it - interesting because they hate any control by others but are doing it to themselves) and be guided (key word) by someone trustworthy to them to break out of that.
This is bullshit.
What specifically here is bullshit?
Are you even a 7? Weren't you typing as an 8?
Aren't 7s suppoused to avoid depression at any cost?