miss fortune
not to be trusted
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I've been quite the liar for most of my life... it was the easy way not to let people down and to still get what I wanted out of any given situation. The more I practiced it the easier it was to the point where I could tell a lie without batting an eye. Lying enabled me to get what I thought I needed and covered for me so that I could be who or what I wanted to be. If I'd been a superhero, lying would have been my superpower
a while back I decided to quit and just tell the truth, no matter how bad of an idea my brain was telling me that it was. I have to set things right somehow, so why not start by being honest?
being honest with myself was probably the most painful part... there's certain things that nobody really wants to realize about themselves, though being honest with others was a challenge as well because my brain was just PROGRAMMED to lie... that was my impulse response
I've been working on this for over a year... as I started just telling the truth I've lost the ability to lie well at all. On the bright side, I don't have to dedicate NEARLY as much mental space to keeping straight what I told who and how to keep the facade going smoothly... kind of a feeling of relief in a way, though I occasionally offend people by accident and I don't really feel like I have the same control over my life that I once did
has anyone else tried to just tell the truth no matter what? how has it worked out?
a while back I decided to quit and just tell the truth, no matter how bad of an idea my brain was telling me that it was. I have to set things right somehow, so why not start by being honest?
being honest with myself was probably the most painful part... there's certain things that nobody really wants to realize about themselves, though being honest with others was a challenge as well because my brain was just PROGRAMMED to lie... that was my impulse response
I've been working on this for over a year... as I started just telling the truth I've lost the ability to lie well at all. On the bright side, I don't have to dedicate NEARLY as much mental space to keeping straight what I told who and how to keep the facade going smoothly... kind of a feeling of relief in a way, though I occasionally offend people by accident and I don't really feel like I have the same control over my life that I once did
has anyone else tried to just tell the truth no matter what? how has it worked out?