1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)? Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire? Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
I’m 22 years old, born and raised in Dominican Republic but I’ve lived in the United States for 2 years now. Not much else would affect my assessment, I think.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven't you decided on one?
I’m definitely on the Se-Ni axis, inclined to say Se>Ni but I’m not too sure on that, and I’m undecided on the judging functions. I care about knowing myself and place great importance on determining what truly matters to me, which is a trait generally attributed to high Fi users, but I also relate to being adept at problem solving, wanting complete mastery over my craft, and craving that logical consistency of Ti rather than the morals/values consistency of Fi. The Je functions are a bit more confusing to me. I think I’ve always sucked at Fe, and I think I’m practical, realistic, and good at cutting through the BS to get to the essence of things, but I’m not sure if that would be a manifestation of Te or Ti+Se.
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
Becoming a master at something, achieving self realization, forming meaningful relationships, doing things that make me feel fulfilled and satisfied.
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I think I relate the most to sloth. I’m prone towards stagnation, but I hate it at the same time. There’s always something in me that pushes me to break free from that but I’d be lying if I said I never fell trap to it in the first place. It’s something that I’m constantly working on. I can be pretty wrathful too if I indulge in my impulses, but I tend to avoid doing that lately. On the other hand, I don’t relate much to greed or pride, I just can’t seem to find it in me to be like that. It goes against my nature: I can get by with the essentials, I’m not very attached to my possessions, I like sharing, and I’ve never been one to put myself above others.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
Athletic, funny, and smart seems to be a pattern. Someone I can do stuff with but also have meaningful conversations, I don’t click with superficial and materialistic people. I also dislike people who are afraid of trying new things. I have my gripes with laziness (presumably because I hate it in myself and constantly work on it) so I really admire people who are just as self disciplined as me or even moreso. Most importantly though, we need to click on an emotional and energetic level, which is kind of hard to define and doesn’t really depend on any specific characteristics.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
Well.. not to brag, but I like to take care of my physical appearance, so it’s usually people who just see a pretty face and are attracted to that. Usually they give up after they talk to me though, I’m very closed off and reserved at first if I don’t feel like I click with you, so I’m not exactly “easyâ€.
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
I touched on this above: materialistic, superficial, lazy, unmotivated, no drive or purpose. That type of person who just drinks and does drugs all day (which is so common nowadays). People who aren’t curious or willing to learn, close minded and excessively traditional, but also those who lack values and are liberal to the point of degeneracy.
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
Hm.. usually when I admire something I don’t hesitate to emulate it lol, so not much comes to mind at the moment. I suppose it has been difficult to become more self assured and secure in myself, I haven’t exactly gotten there yet, but I’m working on it. To truly know myself and have unshakeable self esteem.
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
It varies depending on the stage in my life you’re looking at. As a child, I would completely suppress it for fear of being an inconvenience to others, up until the point where I would blow up over something silly, usually with a lot of crying and embarrassment afterward. I later became frustrated with myself and how pathetic I perceived this attitude to be, so I adopted a more counterphobic approach and would unapologetically blow up at the smallest things (which is… also pretty pathetic, but it seemed like a step up at the time). I kind of relished in my anger during this time, I found it invigorating. Lately I tend to rationalize my way through it a bit more and try to channel it in a productive way because I can be extremely harsh and offensive if my anger is left unchecked, which I later come to regret.
b) Shame
I definitely used to have shame about who I was as a person. I thought there was something inherently wrong with me and “right†with everyone else, I felt repulsive and like an outcast. So I thought I had to act like someone else or amplify certain characteristics I had in order to be attractive and desirable. I would accommodate and mirror specific people who were close to me because of this, and I was extremely self conscious and had low self esteem. Lately I’m pretty shameless and honest with myself though, I haven’t been like what I mentioned above in years, it was one of the first things I hated about myself and actively worked to change.
c) Fear
I don’t think there’s truly much to fear in life beyond basic physical concerns, and even that is just temporary. I wouldn’t say fear is all that present in my life anymore, thankfully.
d) Love/passion
The main reasons to live in my opinion, the desire for them permeates everything I do. Absolutely everything is for the things and people I love/am passionate about. Honestly, not much else matters to me at my core.
e) Conflict
A necessary evil. I have a pretty high threshold for BS but I eventually snap and set things straight if I need to. I’m not much of a doormat anymore but I definitely used to be.
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you've been unable to conquer, ect)?
Power vs submission, doing what’s right vs what’s easy and comfortable, continuous self realization and transformation.
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) [College aged and above] What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
I’m currently studying ecology. I don’t think I would change it at the moment, although I do love chemistry as well, so I’ve definitely considered it. Ideally I’d like to work in something active and physical where I can apply my problem solving skills while also researching and learning new things all the time.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Mainly if they seem like a weak people pleaser or confident and sure of themselves, and if they have anything interesting to say. Charisma/allure and activity level too.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I’m mostly optimistic, but I think that there’s been a lot of egoism, greed, and selfishness that have held us back. Still, I’m ultimately forgiving and have a lot of faith in humanity, even though I know it will take a long time before it gets to where we need to be.
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
Reading (philosophy/psychology/science), hiking, writing, exercising, drawing, spirituality.
13) How do you usually "hang out" with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
Depends. I usually hang out with people one on one, and we tend to do something outside like go for a hike or to the beach, or just for a coffee if we’re short on time. When we do hang out in a group (~5-10 people) we usually go to someone’s house to drink and talk. It’s usually pretty loud and funny lol.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Actions. It’s easy to just say things and not follow through.
15) Oh dear, you've been cursed by a witch! It's ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose….
a) To never be able to experience the sensation of taste
b) To be immortal
c) To lose your memories
d) To be poor for the rest of your life
e) Or to never experience passion
Elaborate on why!
I’d pick a), even though it’d be painful since I love cooking and food, the other ones are just.. too much. Immortality would get boring and I’d feel very alone, losing my memories didn’t seem that bad until I realized I’d forget all the people who are important to me, you can’t achieve much without money, and passion is one of the main things that gives meaning to life, so no more taste it is I guess.
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
A lazy, jaded, pessimistic and egotistical person who lacks drive and is driven by fear and selfishness.
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
I love obsession and I get bored without it. I crave to be consumed by a task, subject matter or person completely, and I’m always searching for that spark of interest/energy to really get things going. You could say I merge with them; it’s like they become an extension of myself, almost.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
I have been pretty messy most of my life tbh, I actively work against it all the time, but doesn’t always work lol. So it’s.. an organized mess for the most part. And I’m not one to make concrete plans, I feel it takes the fun out of most things, but I usually do have a general idea of how I’d like things to go. I can be impulsive, but not excessively so. I always think things through at least a little, although I also get frustrated just sitting around thinking about things. Surprises are fun as long as they don’t infringe upon my privacy/boundaries or something like that. I usually go with the flow.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
I don’t really care about physical comfort for the most part, unless it’s in my home. I don’t know if I’d say I’d go out of my way that much to create it though? I guess I like things in my home to be clean, smelling nice, and quiet, but I’m not all that picky, honestly.