Animal
So carnal it's spiritual
- Joined
- Mar 9, 2013
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- MBTI Type
- SeFi
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The best way I can describe my emotion is, I have a phoenix complex. One of my biggest fears is my own apathy and emotional deadness. I was like that for too long. I became lusty and hungry, it was gross, ugly; it made me into a monster who couldn't care about anyone but just had thirst and lust and desire, in the most carnal and emotionally bare way. The only emotion I felt was anger, and there was an abundance of it. But then, when I feel emotional; some people wish they had no emotions because it's too much. This is not the case for me. I enjoy it, I love it, I feel alive. I get off on the act of overcoming it, facing it. To me, the way out is through. I don't run from my emotions. I embrace them and indulge them. I work through them. I face every emotion, every weakness, every wound, and bring it to the surface to look it in the face. And I conquer. The phoenix gets more and more and more fiery until finally it EXPLODES in some form of catharsis, release; music, a novel, a workout (depending on the depth and buildup, the catharsis can be long or short) . Then I am born again, innocent.
