Words of Ivory
facettes de la petite mor
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Can you be a little bit more specific?Sex.
Can you be a little bit more specific?Sex.
Can you be a little bit more specific?
You remind me of one of my best friends. He used to do this exact same thing.How could I be more specific than that? lol
Using girls for sex and then telling them to go home. Not even attempting to establish a relationship, just using them as a piece of meat.
I don't think this is the place for you to ask for help. I think you need to find somebody that you can explain everything to, somebody who will understand your story, how you got to be where you are today.i'm entp sx7w8. i'm a renegade. im a bad person. ive done some terrible things in my life. ive hurt people. ive used people. ive been mean to some people. ive been anti social. i'm overly critical.
I just want to be a nicer person. It feels SO hard for me to just conform and be co-operative. I always want to rebel. I always want to cause trouble. I dont know why I feel that way.
I feel like an asshole. Can I ever be forgiven for my sins? How can I turn it around and be more positive?
I actually used to take pride in being an outlaw. But I'm truly unhappy right now. I've been in trouble with the law and lost alot. I feel like there isnt much hope. I see NFs who are happy go lucky and always optimistic. I see them getting along with everyone. I envy those things and want to be like that. What can I do with myself? How can I be a better person who fits into society? How can I get along better with others and make more friends?
i'm entp sx7w8. i'm a renegade. im a bad person. ive done some terrible things in my life. ive hurt people. ive used people. ive been mean to some people. ive been anti social. i'm overly critical.
I just want to be a nicer person. It feels SO hard for me to just conform and be co-operative. I always want to rebel. I always want to cause trouble. I dont know why I feel that way.
I feel like an asshole. Can I ever be forgiven for my sins? How can I turn it around and be more positive?
I actually used to take pride in being an outlaw. But I'm truly unhappy right now. I've been in trouble with the law and lost alot. I feel like there isnt much hope. I see NFs who are happy go lucky and always optimistic. I see them getting along with everyone. I envy those things and want to be like that. What can I do with myself? How can I be a better person who fits into society? How can I get along better with others and make more friends?
thanks liesl.I don't think this is the place for you to ask for help. I think you need to find somebody that you can explain everything to, somebody who will understand your story, how you got to be where you are today.
My experience was that very few people can understand the life experiences that lead to the type of unhappiness you are experiencing. You have to find the right person. Not all therapists or social workers are created equally. You have to find the right one. You have to find someone committed to you, and you have to tell them everything.
It's not about conforming. It's about you finding a way to address your sorrow, dismiss your shame, and find deep contentment.
You're not a bad person. Lives are not created equally. You've probably been through things that other people haven't, things that other people couldn't even fathom. We don't live in a world that's conducive to working through that or comprehending that. You need to find a safe space where you can examine yourself and what you've been through.
I'm sorry for everything. And I hope that you can come to a place of acceptance and moving forward. And as far as hurting others, I hope you reach a place where you don't want to make other people feel as unhappy as you feel right now. Everybody deserves happiness, you included.
You can turn it around. You can be forgiven.
i hope so. i know i can be truly evil and hit someone where it hurts. its actually scary thinking back on it. i think i was conditioned this way growing up. i got more attention from my parents when i was bad, and got zero credit for being good.Every "bad" person has a good person inside them...somewhere ;-)
But...and it's a big but, i try not to hurt anyone emotionally or otherwise.
im done school and i recently started a new job which i hate. i have no choice, i have to work there until i can find something better. after being unemployed for so long, im lucky to have this job. it's decent, but not my thing. my previous career got screwed up when i was arrested (not my fault, i was innocent). that started a huge downward spiral for me and it seems like its taken forever to get back on my feet.Do you study? Do you work? Do you understand that there is more to life than one night stands.
i hope so. i know i can be truly evil and hit someone where it hurts. its actually scary thinking back on it. i think i was conditioned this way growing up. i got more attention from my parents when i was bad, and got zero credit for being good.
The key to this may be as simple as being really honest with girls, if someones interested explain that you are only into having a one night stand, that it's nothing personal and ask them if they are ok with that, if not move on.usually i dont try to hurt anyone. i just do. especially with females that like me. i always end up hurting them by accident (not physically). i often wonder if they are manipulative and act hurt on purpose just to get a reaction out of me and see if i even care.
im done school and i recently started a new job which i hate. i have no choice, i have to work there until i can find something better. after being unemployed for so long, im lucky to have this job. it's decent, but not my thing. my previous career got screwed up when i was arrested (not my fault, i was innocent). that started a huge downward spiral for me and it seems like its taken forever to get back on my feet.
i want to meet new people, make new friends, but im stuck at this job where everyone is in their late 30's-50's and i'm in my early 20s. its a lonely place and i feel like being mischievous just to make time go by faster, but since im new there i know i have to hold back to fit in and be normal.
i'm entp sx7w8. i'm a renegade. im a bad person. ive done some terrible things in my life. ive hurt people. ive used people. ive been mean to some people. ive been anti social. i'm overly critical.
I just want to be a nicer person. It feels SO hard for me to just conform and be co-operative. I always want to rebel. I always want to cause trouble. I dont know why I feel that way.
I feel like an asshole. Can I ever be forgiven for my sins? How can I turn it around and be more positive?
I actually used to take pride in being an outlaw. But I'm truly unhappy right now. I've been in trouble with the law and lost alot. I feel like there isnt much hope. I see NFs who are happy go lucky and always optimistic. I see them getting along with everyone. I envy those things and want to be like that. What can I do with myself? How can I be a better person who fits into society? How can I get along better with others and make more friends?
you know, i really wish i could maintain the same mentality i had when i made this thread.
only a couple days gone by and i already feel like fuck it, i can only be myself, who gives a shit what anyone else thinks *sigh
This may sound like a joke, or as an insult. But it really is not.
Have you tried smoking pot? Regularly? I bet it would help.
I look positively at pot by the way so I am in no way trying to insult you.
Unlike alcohol, pot will not make you violent or make you act in any unexpected way. It will mellow you out, and that is about it. Pot is not addictive either, unlike coffee and alcohol.
Perhaps you already knew this. Perhaps you already smoke pot. Perhaps you are very opposed to pot. But I can't know these things.
Anyway, I hope you find a way to relax.
Edit: I'm negative, and loathe the world.