Raffaella
bon vivant
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- Jan 25, 2014
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Ok, first off, thanks for taking the time for this and sorry about the late response. I knew I was going to need to be operating on all cylinders to process all of this clearly. It's tricky to solve a puzzle that I'm inside of.
The bold definitely cleared up a LOT of my confusion. I am definitely drawn to people. Even fucking strangers. Sometimes I'm sad to end a small talk session with the cashier, haha.
Strong-willed, energetic, definitely, as long as I haven't dipped into the unhealthy, even then though, I can be depressed, but light up around people, temporarily forgetting I'm depressed.
"You build relations quickly and boldly but struggle with the intensity of these, you can be lacking or excessive, you struggle with reaching a happy medium hence the “cold†or “hot†phenomena of an sx-primary."
^^^Also, definitely. I feel like the last 10 years of my life have been trying to find a balance. Still not there yet. The first 20ish years, external structure took care of that. Another reason that structure, and routine is critical for me, I think. At least some level of it, I'll always crave the spontaneous, always have an adventurous spirit, but a base to come back to is needed.
Going through all this constructive self-reflection felt a bit like giving birth, as I imagine it. haha, ok maybe a little dramatic, but not exactly easy, but I feel better and a little more self-aware (also, during labor, my spell checking and even thoughts may be off or unclear).
Thanks, D
lol, you're welcome and, yeah, you're a definite sx/sp.
It's a lot to comprehend in one go but eventually you'll come back to it with a stronger appreciation and understanding.