labyrinth_perhaps
ka-POW
- Joined
- Feb 2, 2014
- Messages
- 234
- MBTI Type
- ENFP
I never understood wasting time with people you hate. relationships make me nervous, because after awhile I feel like I would hate them. I always see my friends dating people they hate, Some of my friends date people in a certain stereotype despite how they hate their personality. But, most of my friends date people they hate. They’re cute don’t get me wrong, but they hate themselves…boyfriend and girlfriend alike. You know what I figured out about hateful people? they’re never alone. They also have someone by their side… clinging to them. I’m not a clingy person I need my space, thats why I don’t date usually…because I get nervous talking to guys, and don’t want to waste my time. Yeah, I don’t want to waste my time with hateful people, and hateful relationships.
That’s why I’m half funny, I’m honest with myself about my fears, and straight up brutal upon my “flawsâ€. Honestly. am I honest or just fucking dramatic at this point? Why am I so mad? Why do I get mad for other people being so fucking crazy and stupid…when I’m in such denial that…I truly do hate myself? I hang out with people all the time because I hate being alone, but I can’t talk to people because I’m nervous about them talking to me everyday? I’m serious I hate being alone but I hate talking about stupid shit…that I’d rather be alone. I let myself be tortured to be awakened…but honestly I just need to really fucking sleep and maybe I would wake up and smell the shit coming out of my ass sometimes, and realize everyone’s shit stinks…it’s a simple fucking concept. it’s fucking disgusting…think about it… everyone’s shit does stink. So why would I think, taking everyone’s shit, sniffing all types of shit I really didn’t want to sniff …because who likes sniffing shit??? would make mine stink any less?
Holy shit, I really need to stop watching the Disney channel at 1:41 am. The Disney channel is literally my life style right now, you think the sitcoms are funny at one point, and you kinda just stop laughing at those sitcoms after while. Soon you hear the recorded laughter in the background, and your like “why the fuck am I laughing at something so staged out to manipulate people into laughing? no would laugh if no one was recorded laughing? because this isn’t fucking funny? Child actors are scary…and make me wonder if they’e related to Pinocchio or something? After this do they go back to being chained up as puppets in that small world ride in Disney? Why did I enjoy going to drama camp for four years?????????†Then I realize my life is like a Disney sitcom.
I know what I really want to be doing, but I’m enslaved into the normality of fucking craziness? This isn’t a fun or a enjoyable life style…but mickey mouse is bidding my virginity on craigslist for like 10k soooo, I kinda have to pretend this is actually funny or…I don’t know.. I’m referring this Disney euphemism to high school and my life now currently, if you didn’t understand…because that’s actually what high school is like. I shit you not.
I love me
That’s why I’m half funny, I’m honest with myself about my fears, and straight up brutal upon my “flawsâ€. Honestly. am I honest or just fucking dramatic at this point? Why am I so mad? Why do I get mad for other people being so fucking crazy and stupid…when I’m in such denial that…I truly do hate myself? I hang out with people all the time because I hate being alone, but I can’t talk to people because I’m nervous about them talking to me everyday? I’m serious I hate being alone but I hate talking about stupid shit…that I’d rather be alone. I let myself be tortured to be awakened…but honestly I just need to really fucking sleep and maybe I would wake up and smell the shit coming out of my ass sometimes, and realize everyone’s shit stinks…it’s a simple fucking concept. it’s fucking disgusting…think about it… everyone’s shit does stink. So why would I think, taking everyone’s shit, sniffing all types of shit I really didn’t want to sniff …because who likes sniffing shit??? would make mine stink any less?
Holy shit, I really need to stop watching the Disney channel at 1:41 am. The Disney channel is literally my life style right now, you think the sitcoms are funny at one point, and you kinda just stop laughing at those sitcoms after while. Soon you hear the recorded laughter in the background, and your like “why the fuck am I laughing at something so staged out to manipulate people into laughing? no would laugh if no one was recorded laughing? because this isn’t fucking funny? Child actors are scary…and make me wonder if they’e related to Pinocchio or something? After this do they go back to being chained up as puppets in that small world ride in Disney? Why did I enjoy going to drama camp for four years?????????†Then I realize my life is like a Disney sitcom.
I know what I really want to be doing, but I’m enslaved into the normality of fucking craziness? This isn’t a fun or a enjoyable life style…but mickey mouse is bidding my virginity on craigslist for like 10k soooo, I kinda have to pretend this is actually funny or…I don’t know.. I’m referring this Disney euphemism to high school and my life now currently, if you didn’t understand…because that’s actually what high school is like. I shit you not.
I love me
