Luminous
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- Joined
- Oct 25, 2017
- Messages
- 10,196
- MBTI Type
- Iᑎᖴᑭ
- Enneagram
- 952
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/sp
I knew there was something about you that I liked and identified with.
My first blog (now gone) here on the nascent forum was titled, "An NT in NF Clothing" where I explored what you describe, and even worked on developing this side of me more. Up to that point, it was like there were two internal personality types at war inside of me, and I think that was one major contributing factor to chronic depression (self-diagnosed). Before I took the MBTI or even a short unofficial version of it, I read through the types which I identified with somewhat. At the time, I was more introverted, and when I read the INFP description, I was sure that was me. But the next one was the INTP description! And that one seemed to fit a little better. ENXP types were not a consideration at the time because of the depression. Somewhat of a tangent, but my mother was INFP. One of the things I loved most about her was her depth, including her depth of feeling. I perceive things like poetry, literature, and intense feeling-oriented music as a vacation from the cold realities of external life and the constructs in my own mind.
I think I've now integrated NF and NT into my personality about as much as I can, yet I still find ways every month or two to do more. The impact of doing that, both in a feeling and thinking sense, is like getting my first pair of glasses at the age of 16. I could not see what I was not seeing, but suddenly...![]()
This is fascinating to me. But not relatable (I think). How do you integrate them more? I guess, as an INFP, I would focus on using Ti and make attempts to look at things in a systemic logical way?