I've taken a few online tests and I'm scoring as an INTP, INFP, ISTP or even INFJ, so I'm asking for help. I'd like to clarify this thing somehow.
I already apologise for any grammatical mistakes.
I'm surely an introvert. I've always had a desire for loneliness ever since I was a child. Social interaction drains me like nothing else.
I'm suffering from a mild social phobia, so my results can be biased by that.
I can't really pick up any area of interest, I just keep changing. I used to play the piano, the guitar, I tried to do fencing and horse riding (even if I am REALLY bad at sports), origamis, to study russian (I'm italian), french, ancient greek, astronomy, physics and I.T. Right now I'm in love with chemistry (during last year of high school I changed courses from humanities to STEM). I'm not that good at hard sciences, I have no problems in understanding the theory, but I mess up with the exercises.
When speaking I can be pretty dramatic, I use a lot of gestures (too much even for italians), and my voice never has a costant tone. I always get anxious when it comes to speaking because I know it can be pretty annoying.
I always second guess everything I do or say. I also tend to victimize myself.
A girl from my old school once said that I was acting like I was keeping others "behind a glass wall", never showing my feelings, love, interest or appreciation. [Note: but I think that I'm really sensitive]
Every day I spend some hours walking in circles in my room thinking about things that I know won't ever happen.
I have a soft spot for underdogs.
I can be impulsive even if I always evaluate pros and cons, I know what would be the best choice, but I get too impatient.
Somehow I feel like I have Fe instead of Fi, I don't care about morals. That would make me an ITP, but I think I'm too sensitive for that. I can't find myself in Fi descriptions, but still I don't know.
I try and somehow like to listen to others when they have any problem, but I can't link to their feelings, so I often end up saying some bullshit or trying to offer a solution they won't like.
I'm kind of aware of social rituals, but I fail at fully understanding or practising them.
I like to do plans but I actually never follow them. They make me live in the future and think about what could be. I kind of live more in the past and in the future than in the actual moment.
My guess is that I have Ti/Fe and Si/Ne, but I'm not sure about the order. The fact that I'm surely an introvert makes me either INTP or ISFJ (I'm really unsure on the F/T axis).
That's it for now, I think. Maybe I will add something later if it comes to my mind. I don't know, I hope that would be useful.