Friday

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I am always messing up with my cell phone. The phone is supposed to be right beside me all the time while husband is at work...per his instructions, he gets really upset if he calls and I am not here to answer...and most days the phone is right here and never rings.

But on those days when I charge it and forget to take it out of the bedroom of course, he calls and I miss the calls and they are usually important calls to him. Like he saw a dead deer or cat on the road and it upset him or he had close call in traffic and is rattled.

I mean it is like once a month almost at most this happens. All other times the phone is right here and either he doesn't call or they are unimportant calls.

Well, today one of his friends from work, was killed over the weekend and he tried to call me to talk about it and I didn't get the call because the phone was in the other room and so he left a text message.

His friend was killed by drunk driver over Sat night and he just found out today apparently. So I know husband was upset and I didn't know the guy at all who died but I feel really because my husband wanted to talk about it and I wasn't there to get the phone, it feels really awful to let him down and I cannot call him until around 6PM now.

I don't intend to let him down, I just do.

The obvious answer is to not forget the phone again..yes I know this, I have vowed this before, but I always end up forgetting eventually anyway. The frazzled ends of my life always seem to eventually wend away from me at the worst times and it does not matter how well I held anything together in between those times. ugh.

Edit: Exchanging text messages with him now, he is really chatting about it, he is surely upset by the news. Wish I could call him.

 

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I am so afraid of the people in this country. They have no respect whatsoever. Just last night, someone barreled through a red light (BEFORE it turned green... not right after it went red...) because they were expecting it to turn, and killed a woman.

And as I drove this evening, I saw everywhere people texting, talking on the phone, READING DOCUMENTS, and other shit. Assholes tailing, fuckers changing into your lane without a turn signal, people without BRAKE LIGHTS.

Oh and this just topped it off. I finished a lovely peaceful walk at the park, and I was walking to my car, and some bitch with her three kids were getting out of their car (TONS of parking spots and she parks RIGHT NEXT TO ME) and threw a soccer ball out to her son and it landed on my hood. Bitch didn't even give me a fucking glance. I walk up to my car AND IT'S DINGED! A fucking new mark! And I look at her door and there's a silver mark on it!

I could rage, I am so angry. It's not the ding... it's that people are so fucking careless and selfish.

I bet the drunk driver didn't even die.

 

[disregard]

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[heart]

Yes, I know. Husband's car was totaled on the way into work before in the 90s, some guy not paying attention ended up causing a five car crash, and someone's car ended up sideways in front of my husband on the freeway. Husband walked away from it, but it has made him anxious about traffic ever since. This won't help that.

Don't know yet if the guy was in Oakland or Chicago when it happened. He as a wife in Chicago.

Husband has so many close calls, people being a-holes and not paying attention.

 

[Geoff]

I do find north american traffic some of the most careless. I think it might be because most people drive automatics.. it's too easy to do other stuff, phone and gadgets. In many other places in the world, most people drive stick... which leads to other kinds of bad driving (too fast, or aggressive)