[Type 4] Fours in Love

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On first glance, I would never have said this description was anything like me. In fact, I thought it was completely obnoxious. But actually, there's far too much about it that's way too much like me.

Projecting beyond their lack of intrinsic identity, they believe their real selves will appear when they are truly loved; so they live thirsting for a passionate and fulfilling romantic relationship, convinced that when it finally appears their inner turmoil will subside and they will become simple and satisfied persons who, complete and content, will not yearn for anything else. Devoting much time and energy to preparation for that future transcendental encounter, they reserve their fantasy only for it. They feel that the present is not real, just a rehearsal for that future moment in which the authentic self will be awakened by love.

Ugh. This is me in a nutshell. Always has been.