First blog and it's gonna sound emo.

[stellar renegade]

I can't concentrate on anything beyond this moment. Not trying to fit a stereotype, it's for realz. If it doesn't apply to some kind of impact right now, I'm not interested.

And I don't know how to get over that.

Part of me wants to make the calls and look things over and make decisions like a put-together business man promoter type guy.

The other huge part of me just wants to go to a party, get buzzed and dance with some really cute chicks.

The only problem is... that's not happening much here. Dallas is boring for one, and I'm not gonna get a car until I move.

So the paradox (I guess?) is that planning is what's going to get me into the crazy active lifestyle I want to lead, and yet the fact that it's planning is what makes me disinterested.

God help me. hahaha. Oh well.

The truth is I don't really care all that much what happens to me in the future, and I don't know how to.

 

[stellar renegade]

Aiight, got some more stuff done in regards to the move. Not much, but enough for now, so I'm good.

I guess I just needed to rant.