I know this is going to sound very SJ of me...but I pretty much have my life plan outlined
right now I'm just looking to fill in the bullet points with specific details. Right now my plans looks as follows
1) Find a woman that I can fall madly in love with and will love me just as much
2) Go out and do stuff with said woman: Go traveling, go dancing, do stuff together
3) Get married to said woman and have kids (I'd like a little girl I can spoil rotten. My future daughter is definitely going to be Daddy's princess
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4) Raise kids and go on family trips and stuff like my parents took me on.
5) Watch kids grow up, move away, have kids of there own. Buy a retirement home in Florida and live out the rest of my days with the woman I love and spend my days dancing, tending to a garden, and yelling at youngsters to get off my lawn.
6) I would prefer to die before or with her but if she dies before I do, then I will surrender myself to a home somewhere where I can have a laptop (or whatever the hell the equivalent will be in the future) and an internet connection
I guess the fact that my life plan revolves around a wife and kids is very ISFJ of me but there you have it.
Personally, I think the idea that you have to have some meaning to your life is a bit misunderstood as we often measure ourselves but what we're doing on a GRAND scale and not on a micro-level. One of the reasons I plunged so deeply into my depression is because I was convinced I was worthless. I'm not a great artist, I don't have very many skills, I'm not particularly good looking, and I tend to spend most of my time alone even though I do love being around people which I saw as a huge fault of mine.
The truth is though is that I define my life by the contributions that I make to people every day. It doesn't have to be something big either, it can just be something as simple as telling a truly amazing woman on some internet message board that very likely she's far more important to the people in her life than she realizes and needs to stop being so hard on herself!
If it's your job you're not happy with, might I suggest perhaps working in public relations for a large charity or aid organization? That would put your "people skills" to good work while at the same time providing some sort of service that really is making a difference in other people's lives (which you said you wanted). Just an idea I had
I kind of fell into what I do myself. I went and graduated from college as a computer major, did that for a year and realized I hated it, then moved into property management of all things. I have no doubt that at some point in time later in life I'll discover that I want to commit my time to something else. I like doing what I do (most of the time anyway) and I know I can support a family doing what I'm doing, so it fits in snuggly with my own life plan. Both of my parents were CAMs/rental property managers and my brothers and I had a very good life. We weren't rich but we certainty weren't poor.
My point? Not very many people find what they are going to be doing for the rest of their lives very early on in their life. The fact that you are running into the same brick wall makes you heinously
normal
Take care amazing lady, you're doing fine