Alright, so I've been thinking about this for a little while now. Why in the world do I play "monkey" at gatherings? When I really just wanna have a good conversation with friends, somebody goes and pumps up the music. That's fine at a party, but then it happens... I start hearing my friends call my name. "Hey Luna! C'mon, so and so wants to dance". Sigh. Really? Even when I don't feel like it. There I go...the monkey on the dancefloor.
So why do I keep going with the flow here? The possible reasons didn't come to mind until recently when I was reading about the ENFP's fear of conflict. It's quite true. I just want to make everybody happy. I don't want to dissapoint.
So, there goes the ENFP; a tool for people who want a party, but don't actually feel like entertaining anyone. Do they think that I work with a non profit clown association or something?
This is why lately I've just been staying home more than usual; to avoid the whole scene altogether. My roomie was out of town and I bearly even left the house during the week. I watched several movies and did a lot of reading. I did some writing too. It was nice.
Maybe I'm broken or something. This whole "monkey show" is a chore and I'm tired. I care less and less what others think and I'm not doing it anymore. If I don't feel like it I'll just sit down and chat or just go home for some peace.
So why do I keep going with the flow here? The possible reasons didn't come to mind until recently when I was reading about the ENFP's fear of conflict. It's quite true. I just want to make everybody happy. I don't want to dissapoint.
So, there goes the ENFP; a tool for people who want a party, but don't actually feel like entertaining anyone. Do they think that I work with a non profit clown association or something?
This is why lately I've just been staying home more than usual; to avoid the whole scene altogether. My roomie was out of town and I bearly even left the house during the week. I watched several movies and did a lot of reading. I did some writing too. It was nice.
Maybe I'm broken or something. This whole "monkey show" is a chore and I'm tired. I care less and less what others think and I'm not doing it anymore. If I don't feel like it I'll just sit down and chat or just go home for some peace.
