I'm guilty of being a bitch. And it is who I am, but usually not to this extent. There are good reasons for my bitchy behavior, at least in my own mind. Which brings me to this: I've reassessed the situation and come to the conclusion that indeed, maybe everything I've been perceiving is somehow all in my head, and by this I mean, an actual clinical abnormality. So, I have written to someone knowledgeable about such things, hoping for a little help as to what might actually be going on with me and some good advice regarding medication to help balance me up a bit. So, sorry to all I may have insulted, I'm just going through a very difficult thing right now, and because I can't seem to get any practical advise from anyone, will most likely look into medication.
For now, I'm going to put this laptop on a shelf somewhere and try to stay completely off the forums as I don't actually think it is helping at all to read these posts and in fact, may indeed be very harmful to my state of mind. Nothing against any of you actually - it's just me and my crazy perception of life in general.