-Not living a rich enough life. This one is probably a biggy.
I feel like I'm always revising my personality and priming up everything that can be primed up. I guess I have a fear of not operating to my full potential. Not literally, but more in terms of being a good person and all.
Yep - I fear missing life's exciting potential and blaming myself as the only one who stood in the way. In the big way: fear of growing old and look back on life disappointed, depressed and feeling like a major failure, haunted by shameful memories.
And I fear:
- being controlled by fear
- other people being controlled by fear
- cowardice (asslicking the powerful, readyness to sacrifice truth, justice or empathy to benefit oneself.)
- anti-intellectualism, willful ignorance in self or others (sapere aude!)
- lost potential
- authoritarianism, powerplay and manipulation
- being ridiculous (= being stupid without realising it)
- powerful people being ridiculous (= being stupid without realising it. Yesterday I was in a public debate with two professional (=paid) christians on "Does God have a vote in democracy?" Their inconsistencies were insultingly stupid. Besides attacking persons rather than ideas, conceptually they fell back to square one in every other sentence. It got too much for even pedagogical ENFP-patience and, well, I let Te loose on them... :steam
- judgmental morals, intolerance, mob-mentality
- being harmed or taken advantage of by people I trust
- unknowingly harm or take advantage of others
- predictability, bureaucracy, routine, orders, traditionalism
- creativity-block
- depression
- unacknowledged psychopaths on the loose
- absence of feeling love
- absence of feeling loved
- to disappoint or anger people I care about
- that anything bad happens to my loved ones
- death
Whoa, I seem to have a lot of fears when actually listed! Should I fear that?