Observations and Questions - Quoted you in
green.
- I don't know that I buy your typing as a 6 if you don't relate to Sp at all, as 6 is a very self preserving type. Not to say that there are no So/Sx 6's, there
are.
- Okay, so you are a people pleaser. I'd nix 4 and 8 as possibilities pronto.
- You tested as a 2w3, and though you said you don't believe you are one,
"I'll scratch your back, you scratch mine" is very 2. Enneagram 2's believe if they give, they
deserve to receive. Something to think about.
- Despite the things you relate to about 3, I don't think you are one. You seem too brooding to be a 3 in my opinion, they are
very charismatic and tend to be flashy. You don't come across that way in your video at all. The 3's I know are definitely quicker moving, animated and generally try to impress me-- you come off as a lot slower moving and sedentary.
- You have tested as a 4 but you said you push aside your own emotional needs in favor of those of others-- that's
so not 4. You are also way too mellow feeling, I almost get a 9 vibe from you. Even that you relate to having no identity,
"I just sort of soak up like a sponge (other's interests, beliefs, ideals)...I don't feel like any of them are my own though, that's what's weird. I just feel like everything that I am is other people around me. It's so frustrating, I don't know how to separate myself from people around me." This is from around 16:20 if you're wondering where I'm pulling the quote from. 4's define themselves as being different and would never sacrifice their individuality that way. I've known a good deal of 9's who mis-typed as 4 at first. Haha, I love your
"I don't get self hatred and pain" statement, I think it's safe to say you are not, and have no connection to 4 at all.
At this point, my money is on 9. but let's continue...
- You resonate with 5 because you've always been an
"information seeker", but you say it's so people won't "take advantage of you or think you are stupid". That feels 6 or 9 in my opinion, a 5 would seek knowledge like thirst-- there's a greed for knowledge with 5 (Avarice is their core passion) and a large obessive tendency around areas of interest. I don't get the vibe from you really. You also say that you really have no social anxiety, which even an So 5 would deal with. As I recall, Social 5's have a larger desire to impress people with their knowledge (I seem to remember them referred to as "the Expert" or some such), and again I don't get that arrogant vibe from you.
- Okay, 6.
"I go along with whatever people want me to. I just do whatever it is to gain their support, or try to gain their support." I do feel the 6 vibe here with wanting support, but the way you've expressed it is actually a good deal too passive for a 6 (in my opinion). I still say 9, but perhaps with a 6 fix.
"in order to do things, you have to do it yourself. You can't rely on anybody. Which is sad, but it's the truth." I feel like you said this, not because you actually believe it, but because it's been your experience and you feel like you aren't allowed to be upset about it. From what you've said, you actually
long for community and do not really feel comfortable or safe without it.
You seem
super mellow and chill to me, which is not very 6.
"I'm not sure if I feel like I'm really sure if I'm hardworking. I mean, I try. You know, I try, when I do things to do the best I can. But I feel like a lot of times, I have no energy...I can be really lazy sometimes." Yikes, girl. You
so a 9. NINE.
Okay, skipping your commentary on 7 and 8 because you are
surely as a live, neither.
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"...fearing loss and support is almost the same thing as lacking support..." Yes, yes it is. This is where 6 and 9 are simmilar, they both highly value connection to people. "...want's to avoid conflicts and tension: yes,
naturally." LOL, avoiding conflict is not a default personality trait for all people. The fact that you do is
significant in determining type.
"I've let a lot of people disturb me, just because I didn't want to loose them...I would just deal with it, essentially.", "I can't actually motivate myself to do anything." NINE. On the internal peace bit: It says 9's try to maintain their inner peace, not that they are always successful. I also think your conundrum with
"having too much going on in your head" makes sense for a 9 with a 6 fix.
Questions: Do you see things as not your problem? How do you feel about being perceived as annoying or difficult? Would you consider yourself a planner? Do you like to be prepared, or are you more prone to wing it? Do you deal with anxiety?
Conclusion: You are a 9 with seemingly balanced wings, tritype 962.
Ps- Sorry this is so horrendously formatted, I'll probably edit this later to tidy it up.
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